If you had made up your mind to do so, and hadn't come to your senses, would you have said anything? I think not.
Your power likely rivals his in all ways. If some nobody gives up their ability to light a goddamn candle, I could care less.
You, on the other, have a responsibility. You don't have the luxury to entertain weak willed thoughts that will give you an easy out. Learn to deal with it. It's a part of you. It is you. It's not so easily given up.
Don't forget - our captor's contract isn't the only one you agreed to. What do you think happens when you turn your back on your own soul?
[ He has to wonder if Akechi realizes that his acidic lectures carry no small amount of his own special brand of care and praise. Rarely has Maruki felt so pleased with a dressing down. It's strange. ]
Those are more or less the same things I told myself. It was a brief moment of weakness. It won't happen again.
I appreciate the reminder, even though you shouldn't have needed to give me one. Thanks, Akechi.
That question is an interesting one, though. I wonder if that's ever happened? Someone rejecting their own persona.
[Maruki's compliance and explanation are good enough for now. Another inkling or murmur and Akechi will put a gun to his head before he takes one step to that goddamn crystal.
The second question is a good one. There's a choice to be made and he's never seen someone reject it wholly.]
I wonder as well, though I can infer what would happen - the formation of a palace from its ashes or the death of person in question.
As I said, it's an uncomfortable process to awaken a persona. It only ends when the contract is agreed to through word and will. To awaken it, then reject it - well, I can imagine the agony would be all consuming to the point of breaking.
Perhaps something more akin to a mental shutdown than anything else, in that case. It's a morbid thought, but I have to admit I'm curious.
I've often wondered what would have happened if I hadn't sought Azathoth out when it first called to me, before I knew what it was. Maybe the same thing, maybe not.
Ah, who knows? It's chaotic lately. Another persona user might appear and have answers we never expected.
[No more persona users, actually. He's reached the limit of his tolerance.]
It's difficult to say for you given the odd nature of your awakening.
Not to mention - you recall it, don't you? When you had a palace and persona? There's a reality where two conflicting things are occurring where they shouldn't.
Though anything that did happen to someone too afraid to accept their own soul would be well deserved. Whether that ended in death or not.
Keep in mind I'm not a researcher. My understanding of that world is minimal in comparison, but no, it shouldn't be possible. Not at all.
When you're able to fully delve into that reality, and the field itself, I have no doubts you'll shatter the expectations of what we know, and push the boundaries of what was thought possible. You're living proof of it, after all.
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WHY DIDN'T I GET THIS NOTIF i'm gonna kill dw this thread is cursed
Whether you do or don't is irrelevant. All I care about is you maintaining our agreement.
[He'll be dead anyway, more than likely. What does he care about the cognitive world at that point?
A part of him-
Is curious though. Wonders. Thinks about what could happen in that place after being involved in it for so long. How it might change, look, feel - if palaces will continue to be the only way a human heart forms in that world or if it'll manifest in other ways.
[Read @ XX:XX for five, ten, fifteen minutes and-]
There are two ways to access the Metaverse.
One is through the subway station - that will take you to Mementos.
Two is the use of keywords on an application to access the palaces of those with distorted hearts. Full name, real world location and how they see the world. Often, the latter is a guess. There's no limit to the attempts you can make.
I imagine you will be bound by these constraints like the rest of us. The application will appear on your phone on its own.
As a final note - the map I drew when you first moved into the castle is the general layout, but the levels are never the same - the depths it goes to is unknown. There is no foreseeable end, which feels appropriate given what it reflects.
The offer. The choice. The promise. Akechi said he would. Maruki said he would wait. They're supposed to walk into that world together, at least once. An almost poetic way to end their intertwined lives with one final walk through a reality neither belongs in.
Metaverse. Somnius. It's all the same.
It's too risky to drag him along on a normal outing, mission or not. Akechi isn't watched like he was in his younger years, isn't under the time constraint necessary to capture the Phantom Thieves, Shido doesn't know Maruki enough to fear him.
To make it work without any chance of either being found out, Akechi would need to finish everything that day. Explain the world to Maruki. Kill Shido. Then die by the hand of some sycophant in a power struggle. Die by the hand of a cleaner. Die with Shido because that man was never a pushover.
When he travels to that world with Maruki, it will be the last time he steps foot in it.
What a symbolic end to an unwanted life - trawling through the unconcious of humanity to listen to the last sordid, disgusting thoughts of a world that doesn't deserve to continue.]
I'll see what I can do. If it's feasible, we will.
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OKAY.]
You must be drunk if you spared a single thought towards that idea. Should I bring you a glass of water? A towel? Do you need a bucket to puke in?
what the hell i literally reposted this earlier??? WHERE DID IT GO
Like I said, don't worry about it.
i ate it
If you had made up your mind to do so, and hadn't come to your senses, would you have said anything? I think not.
Your power likely rivals his in all ways. If some nobody gives up their ability to light a goddamn candle, I could care less.
You, on the other, have a responsibility. You don't have the luxury to entertain weak willed thoughts that will give you an easy out. Learn to deal with it. It's a part of you. It is you. It's not so easily given up.
Don't forget - our captor's contract isn't the only one you agreed to. What do you think happens when you turn your back on your own soul?
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Those are more or less the same things I told myself. It was a brief moment of weakness. It won't happen again.
I appreciate the reminder, even though you shouldn't have needed to give me one. Thanks, Akechi.
That question is an interesting one, though. I wonder if that's ever happened? Someone rejecting their own persona.
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The second question is a good one. There's a choice to be made and he's never seen someone reject it wholly.]
I wonder as well, though I can infer what would happen - the formation of a palace from its ashes or the death of person in question.
As I said, it's an uncomfortable process to awaken a persona. It only ends when the contract is agreed to through word and will. To awaken it, then reject it - well, I can imagine the agony would be all consuming to the point of breaking.
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I've often wondered what would have happened if I hadn't sought Azathoth out when it first called to me, before I knew what it was. Maybe the same thing, maybe not.
Ah, who knows? It's chaotic lately. Another persona user might appear and have answers we never expected.
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It's difficult to say for you given the odd nature of your awakening.
Not to mention - you recall it, don't you? When you had a palace and persona? There's a reality where two conflicting things are occurring where they shouldn't.
Though anything that did happen to someone too afraid to accept their own soul would be well deserved. Whether that ended in death or not.
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[ Local man discovers yet another way in which he is abnormal. : ( ]
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When you're able to fully delve into that reality, and the field itself, I have no doubts you'll shatter the expectations of what we know, and push the boundaries of what was thought possible. You're living proof of it, after all.
WHY DIDN'T I GET THIS NOTIF i'm gonna kill dw this thread is cursed
bc you hate me OH WOE IS ME
[He'll be dead anyway, more than likely. What does he care about the cognitive world at that point?
A part of him-
Is curious though. Wonders. Thinks about what could happen in that place after being involved in it for so long. How it might change, look, feel - if palaces will continue to be the only way a human heart forms in that world or if it'll manifest in other ways.
Oh well.]
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Good night, Akechi.
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There are two ways to access the Metaverse.
One is through the subway station - that will take you to Mementos.
Two is the use of keywords on an application to access the palaces of those with distorted hearts. Full name, real world location and how they see the world. Often, the latter is a guess. There's no limit to the attempts you can make.
I imagine you will be bound by these constraints like the rest of us. The application will appear on your phone on its own.
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A cognitive representation of collective unconscious was accessible through the subway all this time? I could kick myself...
If the application does appear, I won't even open it until you've done what you need to do. Our deal comes first.
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As a final note - the map I drew when you first moved into the castle is the general layout, but the levels are never the same - the depths it goes to is unknown. There is no foreseeable end, which feels appropriate given what it reflects.
Be cautious entering and exploring.
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[ ... ]
You don't remember what I told you before, do you?
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Jog my memory - in reference to what?
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That wasn't lip service. I understand the constraints we're both under, but I stand by it. Go with me, just once.
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The offer. The choice. The promise. Akechi said he would. Maruki said he would wait. They're supposed to walk into that world together, at least once. An almost poetic way to end their intertwined lives with one final walk through a reality neither belongs in.
Metaverse. Somnius. It's all the same.
It's too risky to drag him along on a normal outing, mission or not. Akechi isn't watched like he was in his younger years, isn't under the time constraint necessary to capture the Phantom Thieves, Shido doesn't know Maruki enough to fear him.
To make it work without any chance of either being found out, Akechi would need to finish everything that day. Explain the world to Maruki. Kill Shido. Then die by the hand of some sycophant in a power struggle. Die by the hand of a cleaner. Die with Shido because that man was never a pushover.
When he travels to that world with Maruki, it will be the last time he steps foot in it.
What a symbolic end to an unwanted life - trawling through the unconcious of humanity to listen to the last sordid, disgusting thoughts of a world that doesn't deserve to continue.]
I'll see what I can do. If it's feasible, we will.
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