I resigned myself to my death fairly quickly, all things considered, but I never resigned myself to yours. Something told me there was a way out for you. Maybe you can chalk it up to wishful thinking, but one way or another, it ended up being true.
So, you lived. I did too, which wasn't what I expected. It's still difficult to not feel like I'm on borrowed time, but I digress... Two clean slates. That's my point. My own was already overwhelming enough to contend with, and I'm an adult with decades of work and education behind me. I figured that once you returned, you'd have difficulty figuring out what to do next - more than understandable after everything.
To be clear, Akechi, you could wait to return to school or work for another six months. Another year or two or more. I wouldn't care. However long it takes is however long it takes.
It's why I haven't pushed or rushed you. You deserve time to sort yourself out and decide what you want out of life.
[ Something he was never once afforded before. It's making up for lost time, but that's sentiment, so Maruki doesn't include it. Akechi can probably guess, anyway. ]
While you were gone, I knew you'd come back here to recuperate and eventually take the next step. With that end goal in mind, why wouldn't I think about your future? I always intended to help get you there, so of course I wanted to consider it.
I guess, in the end, it all circles back to what I said in the beginning. I wasn't resigned to your life ending as early as you were. I was always picturing a future for you. I just didn't expect to get the opportunity to put any of that into action. Now that I have it, I'm going to take it.
We both got second chances, whether we deserve them or not, and neither of us are the type to waste them. It's as simple as that.
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So, you lived. I did too, which wasn't what I expected. It's still difficult to not feel like I'm on borrowed time, but I digress... Two clean slates. That's my point. My own was already overwhelming enough to contend with, and I'm an adult with decades of work and education behind me. I figured that once you returned, you'd have difficulty figuring out what to do next - more than understandable after everything.
To be clear, Akechi, you could wait to return to school or work for another six months. Another year or two or more. I wouldn't care. However long it takes is however long it takes.
It's why I haven't pushed or rushed you. You deserve time to sort yourself out and decide what you want out of life.
[ Something he was never once afforded before. It's making up for lost time, but that's sentiment, so Maruki doesn't include it. Akechi can probably guess, anyway. ]
While you were gone, I knew you'd come back here to recuperate and eventually take the next step. With that end goal in mind, why wouldn't I think about your future? I always intended to help get you there, so of course I wanted to consider it.
I guess, in the end, it all circles back to what I said in the beginning. I wasn't resigned to your life ending as early as you were. I was always picturing a future for you. I just didn't expect to get the opportunity to put any of that into action. Now that I have it, I'm going to take it.
We both got second chances, whether we deserve them or not, and neither of us are the type to waste them. It's as simple as that.