[Her fingers tighten on the white tablecloth. She shouldn't be doing that, Father will scold her-
Father is too busy speaking with the man that's making decisions for Akechi, an ecstatic expression spread across his features. How can he look like that, after forcing two people's lives to be forever intertwined? Akechi, too, said that he didn't have any choice in the matter...
Her arms feel so cold.]
Please don't apologize. This... isn't your fault...
[Maybe it's hers, because she wished to have a friend.
If she hadn't wished for more, hadn't wished for her father's love or a friend's smile... maybe fate wouldn't have decided to punish her.
Or was it more literal, her own father's work? She'd barely spoken with Akechi after he helped her clean up that day at the studio... Haru doesn't even think they were on screen together. She can't remember now, her thoughts as loose as water held in her palms, but had she stopped to say thank you to him before leaving? She would've. That seems like her, so... It hardly ever seems like her father remembers she exists anymore, but had he been watching that day, sensing something he wanted within reach?
She wishes she hadn't thought of it, because it makes her stomach turn.]
If you feel the need to apologize, then I should, too... But you don't have to worry about anything like lineage. [A quick glance to the side reveals the two men still engrossed in their conversation. She still has a bit of nerves saying it, but Haru and Akechi are as inconsequential as dust to them right now.] I suppose it doesn't matter what I think anymore, but that kind of thing... It's never mattered to me when I entertained thoughts of getting married.
[She finally releases the tablecloth, folds her fingers into one another. She wonders if Akechi is like the other people that want her for her name, if he's excited about the money. If part of him is actually happy about this, even if he didn't have any say in his future. Many people are different from her, right? They don't care about romance when it comes to marriage.
She wonders if he'll leave her all alone, too.
He doesn't sound happy, though. Polite, genial and maybe a little nervous... But he doesn't sound happy.]
I'm sorry that you're marrying someone you don't have feelings for... But if there's anything I can do to make it easier on you, please tell me.
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puts the steam wand to them
No, that's not...
[Her fingers tighten on the white tablecloth. She shouldn't be doing that, Father will scold her-
Father is too busy speaking with the man that's making decisions for Akechi, an ecstatic expression spread across his features. How can he look like that, after forcing two people's lives to be forever intertwined? Akechi, too, said that he didn't have any choice in the matter...
Her arms feel so cold.]
Please don't apologize. This... isn't your fault...
[Maybe it's hers, because she wished to have a friend.
If she hadn't wished for more, hadn't wished for her father's love or a friend's smile... maybe fate wouldn't have decided to punish her.
Or was it more literal, her own father's work? She'd barely spoken with Akechi after he helped her clean up that day at the studio... Haru doesn't even think they were on screen together. She can't remember now, her thoughts as loose as water held in her palms, but had she stopped to say thank you to him before leaving? She would've. That seems like her, so... It hardly ever seems like her father remembers she exists anymore, but had he been watching that day, sensing something he wanted within reach?
She wishes she hadn't thought of it, because it makes her stomach turn.]
If you feel the need to apologize, then I should, too... But you don't have to worry about anything like lineage. [A quick glance to the side reveals the two men still engrossed in their conversation. She still has a bit of nerves saying it, but Haru and Akechi are as inconsequential as dust to them right now.] I suppose it doesn't matter what I think anymore, but that kind of thing... It's never mattered to me when I entertained thoughts of getting married.
[She finally releases the tablecloth, folds her fingers into one another. She wonders if Akechi is like the other people that want her for her name, if he's excited about the money. If part of him is actually happy about this, even if he didn't have any say in his future. Many people are different from her, right? They don't care about romance when it comes to marriage.
She wonders if he'll leave her all alone, too.
He doesn't sound happy, though. Polite, genial and maybe a little nervous... But he doesn't sound happy.]
I'm sorry that you're marrying someone you don't have feelings for... But if there's anything I can do to make it easier on you, please tell me.