Distorted desires are still such - it still exists. They can still grieve that loss, even if you can't comprehend the reaction or it's 'messed up.'
[Not that Akechi would know a thing about that. Anyway.]
As for your heart, of course I do. You think, you feel, you have goals and desires, wishes and memories. A heart that can grieve, and heal. You fight to survive and maintain your freedom. You value your autonomy. Someone without one would never do such things.
[A little ear scritch - good cat??? This is weird. HELP.]
However, on the opposite end of that - you can be distorted, corrupted and lose sight of the truth. That's something only you will ever be able to control.
[ and laios' remarks made her unsure once more. izutsumi in the boundary of natural and unnatural. she leans into his touch with a purr in her chest. ]
[He could, if she were in his reality. A simple phone app would show a corrupted heart in an instant. Here, he can't fathom one way or the other.]
Even though I could provide my own opinion based on knowing you, a person's true feelings and their cultivated image can be entirely different. I will never know because I'm not you. Only you can come to terms with such things, if that's occurring.
[ no one has answers. izutsumi must dig for her own. always, always on her own. it's lonely, living like this. being like this. and she knew that. she always knew. even her wish . . . would never be granted. because she also knows the danger of wishes.
she's just not sure how to go forward. what forward is. and marcille's gone.
izutsumi just makes a plaintive sound, burying her face against akechi's thigh. ]
[Uncomfortable as the sensation is to have someone on him like this, he allows it with all the coiled up tension of someone about to run from a burning building. Scratches behind her ears, as requested. Lets her lay in his lap, as requested.]
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I don't know about demons. The one we met was weird that way. He . . . cared but his caring was all messed up.
You think I have a heart?
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[Not that Akechi would know a thing about that. Anyway.]
As for your heart, of course I do. You think, you feel, you have goals and desires, wishes and memories. A heart that can grieve, and heal. You fight to survive and maintain your freedom. You value your autonomy. Someone without one would never do such things.
[A little ear scritch - good cat??? This is weird. HELP.]
However, on the opposite end of that - you can be distorted, corrupted and lose sight of the truth. That's something only you will ever be able to control.
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[ and laios' remarks made her unsure once more. izutsumi in the boundary of natural and unnatural. she leans into his touch with a purr in her chest. ]
Am I distorted?
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[He could, if she were in his reality. A simple phone app would show a corrupted heart in an instant. Here, he can't fathom one way or the other.]
Even though I could provide my own opinion based on knowing you, a person's true feelings and their cultivated image can be entirely different. I will never know because I'm not you. Only you can come to terms with such things, if that's occurring.
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she's just not sure how to go forward. what forward is. and marcille's gone.
izutsumi just makes a plaintive sound, burying her face against akechi's thigh. ]
Scratch my ears some more.
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[Uncomfortable as the sensation is to have someone on him like this, he allows it with all the coiled up tension of someone about to run from a burning building. Scratches behind her ears, as requested. Lets her lay in his lap, as requested.]
You'll endure, Izutsumi. As always.
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[ it settles in her. like truth. ]
I will.
we can call this wrapped unless u wanna do more <33
[That's all there is to it - for as long as she remains, he'll continue to pat her head.
Later on, a couch is made up for her, full of blankets and pillows stolen from Maruki's room. Whether she chooses to stay or not, it's available.]
sounds good <3