Free from the tight coils of persona contorting his body, latching him to a spot and
Free from the Robin Hood's leash, image, a false personality hidden behind a just prince manifest.
Maruki's smiling. Akechi is too - manic and ferocious with his fingers wrapped around the handle of a knife in his chest, the other threading through his hair and-
Loki is strong. Loki is unburdened. Loki doesn't have limits. Loki is wild and alive - floats behind him without intent to protect from the upcoming attack. Akechi's hit head on with it - doesn't bother to block or move. Laughter that -
Mocks. Thrives. Coats the sensation of blade sliding from his guts as he rips it out in one swift motion. Red blooming across his shirt, like an ocean made of thick crimson viscera. Like a boy turned god about to unleash his wrath on an unknowing world. He isn't in the Metaverse - a deep, twisting wound embedded and pulled out makes him dizzy, sick, and-
Happy - joyous.]
God, I live for this!
[Loud. Blooming like the spot on his chest. Riot Gun comes easy - Loki is strong. The healing tentacle will go down and everything, everything, everything will be hit and-
Akechi wastes no time in moving closer again, undeterred by a wound, emboldened by Loki behind him and-
Debilitate focused directly on Maruki - the only image his unblinking eyes are focused on.]
[ The same attack that happened in the kitchen, but with a far wider spread, more lethal intent. Azathoth and one of the tentacles take a small amount of damage; another repels, and the Tentacle of Healing goes down as intended. Maruki curls both arms protectively over his head as the static rain jolts and singes. His hiss is half one of pain, half exasperation at healing power gone when the bloodstain over Akechi's chest is growing steadily. He also ready knows he can regenerate them at will, it's just a matter of a little time.
There are more important things to deal with first.
He doesn't know what hits him, but he knows instantly when it does – both he and Azathoth feeling drained, leaden, rooted to the spot. Some sort of nerf.
He doesn't know.
He doesn't like it.
Maruki straightens up, takes one look at Akechi advancing on him, and what needs to be done coalesces in his mind instantly. ]
I regret not pointing this out to you sooner... You shouldn't mistake our powers as being equal.
[ That was a nice Debilitate, Akechi.
Unfortunately, the Tentacles of Assistance and Protection are both still up and in near perfect health. They undo the bulk of Akechi's work in two fell swoops – it isn't the boost of power that Maruki's used to, but it's back to baseline, and that's good enough for him.
His favored attack has never worked on Robin Hood. Maruki knows that. But this persona – this Loki, he can't believe Akechi kept that under his tongue for all the times Maruki used goddamn Loki as an example when talking about the collective unconscious – is about as different from Robin Hood as can be.
Maruki doesn't waste another second once the tentacles have done their work. The enormous ball of pure, glowing energy that heralds Eternal Radiance forms in the sky above them, bright enough to blind for a split second before erupting into innumerable cosmic eyes firing off at Loki, at Akechi, at anything within striking distance. ]
[You shouldn't mistake our powers as being equal. You shouldn't mistake our powers as being equal.
You shouldn't mistake our powers as being equal.
He knows.
It's an infuriating realization that hits him with every new attack discovered in midnight training sessions, in the way Azathoth hits, hits, hits with multiple attacks in quick succession - a man new to this and yet thriving in such undeniable power.
The same power that strikes Loki's weakness - sends Akechi to knees, grasping the wet spot on his chest that's coating his whole front now. Dizzying. Nauseating. Intense Debilitate did little - ]
Oh no - I'm so scared! I don't give SHIT!
[Said with his knees digging into wet ground - You can't hurt me next on his lips because he isn't hurt. Isn't bleeding from his chest. Isn't pressed against his will by a power that exploited his weakness. Doesn't need a second, two seconds, three seconds to catch his breath, remove a blood coated glove from his body, half push himself up through sheer obstinance.
He can't stand in full - knees lock. Doesn't matter. Loki's alive behind him with all the fury in Akechi's heart, the injustice of the world
A teenager born with an undeniable, with teammates, friends and-
A man born with unfathomable power, lonely and rotten like him and-
Akechi Goro who stands below both, whether they breathe or not. No matter what he does - it's always
Second best. He doesn't need them. Second best, despite everything. You shouldn't mistake our powers as being equal because Akechi has to resort to kills coated in viscera, silence and blood, instead of fog and agony.
Fuck them.
He can't breathe. Can. Loki prepares to enact Akechi's will, a column of swirling red lights surrounding the persona-] Do you really think your shitty attack will end this? That I'm so goddamn weak? Don't look down on me you piece of shit! You don't know where true power is - the broken chains on a heart. I'll shatter it again and again and again until you're dead!
[Loki's sword glows bright, bright, bright in Akechi's peripherals.
Red swirls, swirls, swirls and Akechi knows in a second - locking knees, a bleeding chest - none of it will matter. Call of Chaos explodes throughout - spreading from wound to body to brain in an instant.
And
everything
is so fucking meaningless.
He can't think he can't think he can't think he can't think hecan'thtinkhecan'tthinkc̸̨̲̩̻͇̖̦̮̙̥̰̠͕͎͋̊̾̎́̎̽͗̃̆̃̆̚͝a̴̧͔͇̖̮̭̲̠͈̣̗̽̽̔́̀͋̂̆̈̑̚͜n̵̢͙̭̻̹̳̈́̅̍̑̀̌͋͒͑͂͂̚̚͜ͅ'̴̢̡̡̢̟̫̫̯͇̗͖̟͓̥̹̰̓͌͆̂͛̄͌̉ţ̸͇̫̎͂́̑ ̸̨͔͙̫͍̠̬͈̯̖̜̭̤͖̍̍̇͜͜͝ṭ̶͓̥̻̪̱̇̌̈́̃̂̄̈́̂͠͠ĥ̸̢̨̡̬̘̖̬̦͖̝̭̤͔̰͋i̷̛̟̰̩͙͙̟͍̗͇̖̯̎͜͜n̸̢̛͎̙̼̪̖̲̺̤̋̄̓̄̌́̀̇̂̕͝ͅk̸̜̳̙͈͓̬̗͕̠̣̣͈̦̅̂̀̔̌̔̒͛̉̑̾̒̆͒]
It's laughter. He's standing tall again, like nothing in the world has ever phased him and-
As it happens – whatever it is – Maruki can only stare in open, wide-eyed fascination. It isn't an attack. It doesn't seem like a buff, either, not in a way that he's come to recognize so far.
But it gets Akechi up on his feet, and then some.
The blood isn't staunched. Not at all. That's the first thing Maruki catalogues. No healing to be seen, despite the undeniable surge of energy. It makes sense, of course – neither of Akechi's personas seem to have any capacity to heal. Why would they? He's hurt, he hurts, he wants the world to hurt along with him.
Idiot. He's going to get himself killed.
The Tentacle of Healing regenerates with a wave of his hand as Akechi cackles through the mounting power coursing through and around him. Maruki's just about to direct it – if it doesn't knock Akechi out of whatever spell he's put himself under, it can at least take care of that gaping wound – when another attack he hasn't experienced yet hits.
It feels brutal. Dark and heavy, antithetical to everything he feels with Azathoth. A nightmare, sleep paralysis, a demon on his chest. Azathoth can tank the hit fine, as it always does, but the utter newness of the sensation has Maruki dazed for a moment, choking on black smoke.
He straightens, staggers farther back from Akechi, tries to get a good look at him through his frenzy. There's a look in his eye that's almost, almost recognizable. If placid, peaceful emptiness had a twin opposite to it in every way but the one that matters most.
He grabs at his chest, coughs again through a squint before raising his voice. ]
Is that what you tried to do here?
[ To the gelfling they targeted. To whoever else he said he tested a surefire method on. ]
Maybe it only works on someone whose cognition is so susceptible to manipulation.
[ There's no one he saw become enthralled more times than Akechi, after all. ]
I wonder if my ability would work on you too, then. I wonder who you'd become.
[ It's an empty threat, and one said with nothing but seething, sneering compassion. Maruki would never do it. But he's furious with Akechi for hiding so much for so long, and he's too caught up in the battle to bite his words back – it might be a justified end befitting a Detective Prince, being coerced into playing that role and keeping up that perception for the rest of his life.
Healing forgotten for the moment, he focuses all of his energy on taking Akechi down with that same Bless attack again, curious to see what effect it will have on him in this new state. ]
To a meaningless nothing - a worthless piece of trash who didn't see it coming, saw nothing coming, Loki appeared to capture that trash trash trash and nothing happened
Nothing happened
Something happens
Maruki halted. Stopped. Surprised.
It
feels
great.
A violent hum follows every vein, pours out of his chest with every spurt of blood from his own erratic, unstoppable unstoppable he is unstoppable movements towards Maruki. Joker never got to see this - Maruki does. Joker never saw Akechi alight with the flame of battle and an all too well worn hysteria that phantom walls in a dark coated world used to absorb. Joker only saw Akechi when bone, gut and gore gave life to a blank wall behind him.
Joker gave
life to everyone
around him. Akechi felt
alive
dead
and
Maruki's flesh, bone, and guts will create a new reality in this fake, fake world.
The attack hits. Akechi doesn't try to dodge. Back to his knees in crippling agony that he should feel, doesn't feel, can't feel with the freedom of his soul, unchained, untied, unleashed to keep going. He's strong - so strong. Loki doesn't make him strong - Loki exists because he's strong and he-
stands up again
Cackling, both hands threading and tearing and ripping at strands against his skull. It doesn't hurt - nothing does.
He'll kill Maruki.]
Oh, you're merciless, aren't you?
[Taunting. Wild. Happy. An attack already at the helm - the world's swimming from overwhelming euphoria as Loki burns, burns, burns behind him with every tug, tug, tug and-
Maruki would like
to paint his soul across this world
so akechi won't stop until he does.
Healing tentacle is the target for EIGAON - nothing to get in the way and-
He's back up. Forced up. His feet, legs, body pushed back up again and again and again and again and againandagainandagainandagainandagainandagain. He'll kill Maruki. He'll kill Shido. He'll kill Shido and-
Dizzy. Stumbles. Stands. Loki - with Loki - because of Loki - because of his willpower to create Loki-]
Die, die, die, die, die, DIE!
[Knife thrown to the ground, Loki preparing to hit Maruki with Laevateinn and-
Akechi pulls the gun from his side pocket, damp shirt leaking to his pants and lining it up with Maruki's face.
Slightly above his glasses, right between the eyes, against a
tile floor
starlit sky.
Edited (so used to adding cw: suicide i didnt actually need it this time) 2024-07-29 00:53 (UTC)
[ The same attack – not targeted at him this time – the Tentacle of Healing crumples to the ground again – two weaknesses then, Maruki's fury is beyond measure – useless, he feels useless – another attack being leveled at him the likes of which he's never seen – and then–
He's only had a couple seconds to register the gun when Laevateinn makes contact.
Maruki has gotten used to taking Robin Hood's attacks on the nose, but Loki is another beast entirely. The great spectral sword comes down on him and he hits the ground, hard. Pain cracks and jolts up from his knees from the force of the fall, down from his head from the strike, palms scraping and slicing against the ground as he tries to brace himself so as not to collapse under its weight entirely, a violent ringing in his ears.
His breath catches and seizes in his chest with the aftershocks of that pain – somehow, despite appearances, not magical in nature, entirely physical and much harder to shake off because of it – as he lifts his head to see–
The gun.
The same gun pointed at him in eternally dark woods.
The same gun Akechi must use back in their reality – the same gun that he will more than likely find himself up against after they return, his own hubris pushing the only ally he's ever had to turn on him, and he won't have Azathoth, he won't have anything, he'll be so useless. ]
Don't.
[ Despite the blows he's taken, his voice remains steady, strong.
It isn't fear that he feels, despite–
Endless white fields, an empty paddock where chickens would be raised in the spring, the bare branches of weeping trees, a frozen over pond, a home with the door left wide open despite the snowfall. Broken glass, footprints in the snow. The clatter of furniture overturned, shouts of confusion and panic. Gun fired once. A guttural, animal noise like none he's ever heard. Complete chaos. Rumi's screams. Fired again, and again, and again.
Maruki never saw the gun. Only heard it. Never saw anyone get shot. Only saw the bodies. By the time he emerged into the main house, the damage was done, the gun was gone. Frozen. Hadn't even been brave enough to try to get between the men and their only escape route. Could only watch in terror as hands wrapped around Rumi's throat before slamming her into a wall, could only unstick himself long enough to run to the door and watch them flee, trying to remember the car, the only car on the road, the empty road in an empty town on an empty day when nothing should have happened, and he couldn't do anything about it at all, never been more useless–
No, it isn't fear at all. ]
You're not going to kill me here, Akechi.
[ Maruki stands fast, all the blood rushing to his head, a hand out to brace himself against Azathoth's chassis as a wave of tentacles shoots forth to restrain Akechi again.
Knife on the ground – good.
Gun wrenched out of his hand and thrown aside – better.
Maruki doesn't direct Azathoth to attack. Doesn't think that far ahead. Doesn't think at all. Only advances on Akechi, wrapped in a mass of tentacles he'll surely soon be able to break free from, bleeding, gasping, laughing, psychotic. Tempestuous conviction rages in his voice – because he isn't scared of Akechi. He never has been. ]
You're not going to kill me until you have a good reason to do it.
[ Fist clenched. Arm pulled back. Useless. Knuckles connecting with jaw. Inelegant, unpracticed, but vicious, more than hard enough to hurt them both.
Maruki grips it in the opposite hand, pain radiating across knuckles that will bloom with bruises, and staggers back from him again so the Tentacle of Healing, battered but still functional, can finally take care of that goddamn stab wound. ]
And he finds it in Maruki's gaze. Resolute. Fearless. A far cry from the man cowering from an ant in the marketplace, worried about a knife in his direction.
His jaw aches
from the will of Maruki Takuto.
The blood staunches against his chest - his body sewing itself back together, everything else falling apart. Cooper crawls up his throat, into his mouth - over teeth, tongue, coating the insides of his cheeks. Eigaon misses the healing tentacle completely - the jolt from a fist against skull makes his vision swim.
Riot Gunmisses - targeting tree, ground and earth instead of the man two feet from him, the tentacles writhing around him.]Oh yeah? I decide the reason.
[
Mocking.
Bitter.
Lost and
Found by a man who sees
Every part of him and for the first time
Akechi sees him.
Subdued for a moment. Breaking free the next. Loki-
Appears. Vanishes. Flickers back and forth and back and forth and back and forth and a shining, shining sword glowsglowsglowsglows behind him, but-
[ Just as Loki takes a watchful backseat, so does Azathoth. Strange, considering how little direction it needs to defend him even at the best of times, but– perhaps it's purposeful. Or perhaps Maruki's mind is just that far from their connection at the moment.
Because all of his focus is tunneled down onto Akechi, barreling into him, knocking all the breath out of him as his back hits grass, stones, dirt. ]
We both know that's not true, you lunatic–
[ If Akechi didn't care about his life at all, he wouldn't have spent months warning him to keep his head down when they return to their true reality. It isn't only about staying out of Akechi's way for his own sake.
If Akechi didn't care about his life at all, he would have shot him in his sleep several times over by now.
Maruki knows he's at a disadvantage, has no real experience in a physical altercation. He brings one arm up to guard his face, drives the other elbow into Akechi's ribs as hard as he can to try to get him off.
And despite all of this – despite everything that's transpired tonight, hit after hit, threat after threat – there is no one in either reality that he feels he respects more than Akechi. Now more than ever. Maruki wheezes out a laugh, strikes him again, and needles, needles, because he knows he can, because he knows Akechi can take it as well as he doles it out. ]
Two personas from a broken mind? One that has the ability to shatter it further?
[ In the tone of a mildly fascinated Detective Prince: ]
You really are full of surprises.
cw: violence, eye damage, graphic violence. mmmm just dont click.
[Pressure against a stab wound. It digs in with every word and-
Akechi is delighted
because Maruki was never a waste of his time. Without Azathoth-
He's stronger.
A persona shaped god won't be around forever and Maruki
fights and fights and fights
Like his life depends on it. It does. Akechi doesn't hesitate to peel both gloves from his hand, press into the elbow trying to jab air out of him - it works.
It doesn't stop him.
The dizzying lack of air acting as oil.]
Shut up! [A splintered, airless laugh.] I'll make your last moments on here the most painful.
[He throws all his weight into pushing Maruki's arm to his face - fist directed to glasses. Hits until shards embed in his knuckles. Until he presses against Maruki's eye to dig those pieces into eyelid, cornea, pupil - destroy his vision. Exploit a weakness. Use it against him. Pinpricks rip at his skin - thin red lines all over his hands.
Nails dig into the flesh of his arm. Palm presses broken frame against his face. Thin lines shredded down whatever exposed flesh he can - peeling, ripping, tearing like his body will exude smoke and rot instead of muscle and blood.]
You think you know me? My mind is fine. Nothing is broken. I'm in control of you, Shido, and every other piece of shit here that falls for that pathetic act-
[
Shreds, and digs
and
listens to every piece of bait
and
Rips and tears
and
Destroys everything in sight.
Skin embeds under his fingertips - the same tracks torn into again and again and again and again and againandagainandagainandagain until it stains red, red, red on his hands. No gloves to cover it up this time. The sink will drain crimson for awhile. Akechi will wash his hands
one
two
three
hours until every thought spirals down the drain.] You're so fucking stupid!
cw eye trauma, graphic violence - truly you should not be reading this thread, stranger
[ My mind is fine as he crushes lenses beneath his fist, My mind is fine as he doesn't relent on the pressure for even a second, My mind is fine as shards of glass pierce and dig and bury into his eyes, My mind is fine as a noise like a wounded animal rips from his throat, My mind is fine as he thrashes, kicks, tries to throw him off, My mind is fine as white-hot-sharp-bright-vivid-red pain beyond pain sears through his mind over and over and over with every gouge and tear and shred and claw, My mind is fine as warm, viscous blood streaks down over his cheeks–
Maruki can't see. Can't hear whatever sounds he's making, or Akechi's cruel taunts, or anything beyond the blaring siren static of his own mind. Can't see. Can't breathe without hitching and choking on a stuttered gasp. Can't see. Can't fucking see. ]
Akechi–
[ Weakened, but not pleading. Faint, but still furious.
The same way he didn't know how he would react to having to fight until Akechi snarled at him to kill that kaiju, he didn't know how he would react to true violence done against him until Akechi pinned him down and tore him apart.
Eren once asked him if he'd rather lay down and die than be a burden on someone else. It was early, so early. Maruki hadn't even moved into the castle yet. At that point – yes, of course, there were any number of instances where he'd rather lay down than whatever the alternative was.
Things have changed.
He's changed.
Azathoth rages in the back of his mind, but it's nothing compared to Maruki's own will to live, to fight.
He grabs blindly at whatever he can – Akechi's shirt, arm, face, hair – tries to shove him off – no luck, and some of the blood has pooled down into his mouth, and he splutters on it, but he still fights– ]
I won't tell you again, get the hell off of me, now!
[ Neither of them can see it – Akechi too singularly focused on his target, Maruki stuck in flickering, bloodied darkness – but Azathoth grows as the power within Maruki ratchets up to an inferno.
Wretched noises are fuel. Matches against fire - stacked over and over and over and over again and-
Akechi doesn't notice a thing. Azathoth doesn't exist in his mind's eye or otherwise. Loki's presence ever shifting, a spiral of agony and joy bursting through his chest with little pop, pop, pops that align with every thrashing motion, every unsuccessful attempt to remove him.
He won't relent. Never. Shards deep into his own hand, chunks he grips tight until his palms are coated in the same bright bright crimson as Maruki's cheeks, his eyes and-
That palm slams into Maruki's eye with force - face, cheek, ear, chin, jaw. Bare skin is a target. Akechi shares the pain - every slice pushes the glass in. Facing consequences.
Maruki's eyes are lost under thrashes
glass
A broken frame
A broken life
In a rural home with life tinted walls
In a rural town with damp, damp, grass under living corpses
In a small apartment with nothing left to lose.
Hand tearing into eye, the other full of peeled skin against his nails, dried blood staining and-
A rock - crueler than gun, or knife. Small enough to settle into the grooves of his hand, pointed enough to be a problem-
He
wants
Maruki
to hurt.
Because he's rotten. Because Akechi's cruel. Because both are stuck in muck and mud, festering uncontained wounds that spew pus and drainage. Sick. Spewing false cures while sharing disease and-
He slams the rock into Maruki's neck.
again
and again
and again.
Azathoth is strong because Maruki is strong.
Maruki is fighting. Maruki will fight. Maruki will rip, tear, destroy to get Akechi off of him on the tile floor, in a dark alleyway, beside a colorful poster -
Stone slams into his neck again
again
and again
and again.
Because he needs to learn what it will take to kill Akechi Goro if he wants to survive.]
cw graphic violence, eye trauma, near death experience
[ He doesn't know what hits him. Can't see Akechi pick up the rock. Can't see anything at all. Only feels the force come down against his neck and jolts with the new surge of pain, tries to block with the arm Akechi hasn't been clawing deep red trenches into–
But whatever it is hits again, and again, and again, and again, and again, and again–
At some point, shock sets in and the pain stops registering at all. His vision stops fading from the glass dug into his eyes. His ears stop ringing from the echoes of his own shouting. He stops being able to shout. He stops being able to make any noise at all. Something in his throat cracks, snaps, collapses in on itself– he wants to scream, can't– wants to breathe, can't–
The volume of reality steadily turned down until it goes mute, his own labored half-breaths and his heart kicking into overtime the only sounds rattling around his emptied mind.
It doesn't look like Eden. It doesn't look like anything at all.
There are countless explanations of what happens to consciousness when death draws near. Spiritual explanations, religious ones. Psychological explanations, neurological ones. Maruki can't claim to be an expert in any of them. Has cognitive psience ever had anything to say on the matter? Likely not. It's research he could pioneer. It's research that could get him killed on a chilly winter's night in his tiny apartment kitchen– in an empty alley behind a trendy cafe or an udon restaurant or a jazz club– in a cognitive world whose shape he doesn't yet know– or here, on a grassy knoll behind a castle in the reality that delivered his life straight into the hands of the person who's meant to end it.
He can't fight anymore, but his synapses fire at a rapid pace, trying to stave off the heavy blanket of peace settling over his cognition, and–
Maruki draws a huge, gulping gasp of air as his eyes fly open. Throat structurally sound once more, eyes blurry with blood and tears but fully functional. He sees Akechi above him, the rock raised above his head, the blood coating his hands, the front of his shirt, his face, everywhere, everywhere.
A red-stained grin blooms across Maruki's face. A breathless laugh escapes.
It's over. ]
Azathoth.
[ The sky above them splits open as dark energy coalesces into a great glowing orb, and Maruki wrenches his arms free to grab Akechi around his knitted-together ribs and shove him sideways, down into the grass next to him, with every ounce of strength returned to him with that heal. He can't escape this blast, and he doesn't want to. He just needs to make sure it hits Akechi as hard as it hits him.
Tyrant Chaos aims inexorably at them both, and in the resulting explosion of blinding light, Maruki's only coherent thought is that if they kill each other like this, they'll deserve every second they spend in Inferna together. ]
Stone against skin, a rupture that twists thin streaks of red, muscle pulsing with air that escapes against Akechi's fingers. A hint of white that might be his spine and-
A discarded prince can never win against a decayed king.
Bone and flesh mend under his stained fingers. Expected. He doesn't fight it. Almost glad for it. Infuriated with it. Work undone in a blink, years of cultivated power overturned by natural gifts.
He can't stand it. The glass in his palm stings and -
Bruised ribs and sore body slammed into the ground. Expected.
Maruki's eyes are broken and bright under an ever growing light forming high above them.
Akechi doesn't look because it's nowhere near the brilliant shade pressing him down with gaze and arm.
He just
wanted
to burn
as bright as they do. Did.
Joker. Maruki. And a grotesque prince playing pretend.
He chokes out a laugh because he
wants
to stop
and he can't.
Because he wants
to live
and he can't. Because he wants to
play chess
with a friend
in a shitty cafe nestled in dark alleyway. Because he wants to
sit at a bar
in a shitty shoebox apartment
two subway rides away from a place that will never be home.
He wants to
to stop
he wants
to stop
he wants to stop
he wants to stop
he can't stop
he'll never stop
It's too late to stop.
Maruki's always there - even now, as he tries to push his exhausted, weary body beyond its limit, beyond the thrall of a distorted ability befitting of evil, of a monster, and Maruki's always there -
Confident, unshakeable Maruki -
He could leave and he doesn't. Stays by his side, pressed into the muck and dirt, willingly festering and rotting alongside. Akechi pulled him down. Maruki could rise. Akechi can't. Maruki could. Maruki doesn't.
Maruki's always there even as -
Blinding, piercing light fills his vision and then it doesn't. A flicker. A thought.
Joker saw a light, maybe, as he tried to focus on a dark tunnel aimed at him.
His mother saw a light, maybe, when the sun touched her dangling body in a small room that felt more like home than anything since.
There's nothing
and he thinks he's happy.
Then there's something and thick white foam is flowing from his mouth with lurching haggard breaths. A lack of food a blessing as everything inside his stomach hits blood soaked ground. On hands and knees, he doesn't remember getting up - an axe is hitting his skull again, again, again in ten even splinters that he's sure he could feel if he could move his glass coated hand to check. Shaking. Weak. Attack unclear. Attack unknown. Attack new.
[ It hits, and Maruki never wants to be on the receiving end of Azathoth's power– of his own power again.
For a long moment he only lays there, gasping, bruised, burning, unseeing. Pressed flat into the ground, chest heaving. His mouth opens, nothing escapes.
At his side–
Akechi breathes. He isn't dead.
Neither of them are.
The white slowly bleeds from his vision. A blurry form next to him. Curled in on himself, hunched, slight. Matted hair, streaks and swaths of blood.
Maruki reaches out–
And then he's up in motions so violently staggering that he thinks he's about to get pinned down and attacked again, but instead he only drags himself to hands and knees under his own power, of course, of course. Irrepressible, independent, inevitable Akechi.
In a marketplace of an unfamiliar town– on a dusty road leading to a castle– at a bar in a kitchen slowly becoming his own– in a ruined city filled with monsters tall as skyscrapers– in a living whipped up into a frenzy by an unknowable alien wind– in a perpetually dark forest– in a lake that knew too much– in a bathhouse that heard too much– in a club with low soothing music, in a cafe with obstinate rage– in every late night message and visit and training session– in a glowing alcove on a cliff overlooking a labyrinth they'll one day destroy together– in a grassy clearing stained with both their blood–
There's Akechi. There has always been Akechi.
Maruki hears him retching. Pushes himself to sit up, every muscle in his body screaming against it. Shattered and bent frames fall off his face, into his lap. He reaches out, lays a hand between his shoulder blades as he splutters and wheezes. ]
Akechi.
[ Voice rough, hoarse. Throat burning. Head pounding.
Maruki swallows. Rubs his hand back and forth, even that motion painful. Tries again. ]
[The pressure along his spine is unexpected and foreign. He mistakes it for the weakest punch he's ever felt in his life - plans to retaliate once the last taste of acrid spit leaves his mouth.
But Maruki says his name - tired, pained and rasp. Not a single hint of disdain or anger. The contact between his shoulders no longer feels malicious. The splitting headache dulls with the up, down, up, down, up, down, up, despite his muscles tensing with the movement.
He says they're done. Says Akechi's alright. They are done. He is alright.
Body stilled. Repetitive motion. Questions on his lips and-
It doesn't matter if he asks 'What are you doing?'
He already knows. Maruki's doing what he always does - stays there. Is there. Present.
If he asks 'What are you doing?'
Because Maruki doesn't flinch when Akechi spits vile and venom, fist and rock.
If he asks 'What are you doing?
Because he's foolish. Stupid. All resolve and will.
Loyal, to a fault.
Akechi inhales - slow and quiet. Stomach lurching with nothing inside. It's safe to push himself back to his knees - to take in the broken face next to him. His will unshattered. Unshaken.
They're done.]
They awoke at the same time.
[Voice raw and scratchy. Soft, but not by choice. He doesn't know why he's talking - the same bizarre compulsion he felt at the bathhouse, at the convenience store, on a grassy hillside.]
It felt like this.
[Miserable. Wretched. Fatigue peeling back every layer of skin, exposing nerve to air - every single movement an exhausting effort that drains what little is left inside a person. Maruki may never experience a traditional awakening, but that direct blast of divine energy comes close. It feels like vindication.
He presses a hand against Maruki's shoulder - gentle, at first. Inhale. Exhale. Loki's thrall long gone and nestled back between the barbs in his chest.
Then there's pressure forced down onto the barely mobile man, as Akechi pushes himself up to his feet. No glass in that palm. He tries to loosen small shards with a shake of his other hand and-
He
stands.
And he
Reaches out with the same stone wielding hand that sentenced Maruki to death seconds ago. Stained. Nails torn and chipped.]
There are some kernels of truth even in the lies that Akechi has told him over the months they've circled one another. How it felt to awaken to a mysterious power alone– and now, knowing that it happened twice at once– and with what Maruki has been able to piece together about how young he must have been–
It isn't pity that he feels toward Akechi. Not at all. Only a profound sense of gratitude. I'm glad you're here, even now, even after all that transpired as the sun set over Somnius.
Maruki takes his hand without a second thought, hauls up unsteadily to his feet.
Azathoth must have dissipated somewhere in their half-consciousness. Maruki takes stock of his own injuries, then Akechi's. Tries to call it forth again.
No luck.
That's new. Even after the battle against the Green Knight, he'd had no problem summoning Azathoth. Even before the spaghetti.
The difference is, he'd been in good shape then. Battered from the fight, but not as badly as now – death was never a tangible fear in his mind, guarded as he was by Azathoth – and then healed of his superficial wounds by Venat. Maruki looks down at the broken remnants of his glasses in his hand, remembers the delicate way she mended them for him before, slid them back onto his face with a smile like every star in the sky.
He closes his eyes, sighs through his nose. No Azathoth. No healing. It must have taken the very last of his spirit to save him from certain death and reverse only the worst of his injuries, because everything else remains.
The shards of glass embedded in Akechi's palm catch his eye, turn his stomach. ]
Let's get cleaned up.
[ A step toward the castle, two, three. Testing his strength. It's not like the morning they had to stagger out of the Enchanted Garden. In some ways, it's better; in others, much worse.
Maruki looks over at Akechi, more drained than he's ever seen him. ]
Lean on me if you need to.
[ Not that he expects Akechi to need to, or to accept the offer even if he does, but the state of him–
Maruki feels half-dead from what Akechi was able to do to him under that power. He can scarcely imagine how it must feel to be the one consumed by it. How it must feel to have two souls sprung forth from your own, whether they're cooperative or at war. How it must feel to have to maintain more masks on top of that. How it must feel to sleep little, eat little, work constantly, navigate the complex web of Masayoshi Shido on top of that. How completely depleted Akechi must be on a near constant basis, has been for years, still is even here.
It doesn't matter if Akechi needs it, actually. Maruki grips his arm with steadying force anyway, pulls him along. ]
[Full of surprises - a hand grabbed and used to hoist himself up. No hesitation. No concern. Now, more than ever, he hates Maruki Takuto.
If their positions were reversed, Akechi would have wasted no time in telling Maruki exactly what he thought of his 'help' - where he should shove his hand. A notion that doesn't seem to occur in whatever crossed wires fill his mind.
But they're both up.
They're okay.
An inkling in the back of his mind pursuing what that power was, even in the throes of exhaustion. No Azathoth appearing to lick their wounds - it's likely Maruki is spent. Loki and Robin Hood remain persistent and silent, not that they would provide any help in this moment.
Maruki says something. Akechi didn't catch it, but it's obvious what he meant by the way he heads towards the castle with slow steps, shaky breath.
He follows. The offer heard, ignored and-
A hand back on his arm, tugging an unwilling body forward.
He'll never understand Maruki. Even if they spent 20 more years together, only separated by a single wall, free time spent in each other's company more often than not, Akechi will never untangle what makes him tick. What makes him accept abuse, violence, and no repayment other than a shared resolve to go back to Tokyo.
It's so goddamn maddening-
That he wouldn't have been able to peel himself off the grass without him - couldn't move forward without him.
Akechi hates him - deeply. A sensation pooling in his heart.]
I need my gun - let go and do whatever you need to inside. I'll follow shortly.
[Can Maruki even see right now? Akechi has no clue, but he assumes the man will figure it out somehow. Touch the walls and follow the path. Maybe one of their housemates will pull him in.]
cw injury descriptions (i don't think they're graphic, but. shrug)
[ In truth, he can't remember. Even if he hadn't come close to death and then knocked himself out anyway, things were so frantic that he wasn't paying too much attention to what the tentacles were doing at that point.
Still, he turns around, wavering a little as he does, and squints through scenery that's completely fuzzy. ]
It probably would have been thrown into the trees. It shouldn't be too far.
[ He raises an arm to point. The long, stinging strips of shredded away skin stretch with the motion and burn. He grimaces, looks at his arm. Hadn't realized how bloody it was. Just a red blur.
His stomach lurches once more. It's the most of his own blood he's ever seen outside of his body. ]
See you inside.
[ It's a slow walk back in. A slower ascent up the stairs. The barely-eaten food in the kitchen is ignored; it'll be a pain in the ass to clean up tomorrow, but who knows, maybe The Humanoid Garbage Disposal will end up coming home and inhaling it all. Maruki can't even remember what he made for dinner. Something with extra mushrooms, nearly always. His head spins as he climbs another few steps. He needs–
To clean himself up. Hands, arms, face, neck washed in the bathroom sink, the warm water and soap as painful as lemon juice. Checks himself in the mirror, leaning in close to be able to focus his eyesight. Deep gouges, nasty latticework scrapes, nicks and cuts everywhere. Scratches like the claw marks of a feral animal. His throat may have been healed, but his neck is already bruising black and blue.
He knows he should patch up the worst of the wounds, but he's passed the point of exhaustion and entered into a dark, dizzy state that feels a little too familiar. With the blood rinsed down the drain, he grabs one of their many first aid kids and stumbles into his bedroom down the hall.
He should change. Doesn't. Collapses into bed in the clothes that are still stained with grass and dirt and both of their blood. In the morning, after a good long rest, Azathoth will be in rare form and will fully heal him, he's certain of it. Only then will he worry about mundane shit like laundry.
For now, all that matters is going horizontal, staring up at the ceiling until it stops spinning. The first aid kit is abandoned on his bedside table. His phone buzzes in his pocket. He doesn't check it. Only lays there and breathes, slowly going from a ragged pant to the carefully counted breaths that he teaches to his patients.
He can't sleep yet, despite everything. Can't even rest his eyes without that last image of Akechi above him before glass shattered down into his face, that sense memory of torn flesh and contused tissue. ]
[Finding a gun in boundary of Vash's property was worse than a needle in a haystack. It took-
Awhile. The knife is gone - he doesn't care enough about the dulled blade to give more than a cursory glance around the yard.
And by the time he pulls himself into the doorway, past forgotten meals and into a shared bathroom with a red tinted sink, drops on the edges that denote recent use-
He just doesn't care anymore.
Quiet mind. Blissful reprieve as he follows an all too familiar routine of rinsing bloodied hands for-
Awhile. Repetitive. Mindless. Stings with every tug of thick glass, another stream of red to join the spiraling pool of it, following the thin lines of his palm. Small slivers too deep to pinch out. Impossible to push out. He ignores it and-
Face washed - hair rinsed in the sink. A deep purple settles along his cheek, swelling apparent under his eye and exacerbating an already annoying dark circle. Soreness felt with any minor jaw movement. Shirt coated red from a stab wound with a similar bloom of colors - it almost looks like Loki's spreading across his body.
There are plenty of first aid kits. He ignores every single one of them because-
The fight is a shared responsibility. Both of them egging the other on and-
He remembers that Maruki isn't accustomed to this and-
It would be a shame if he died from minor wounds in his bed after surviving a brutal assault by an ally's hand.
The door's never locked - he walks in, palm stinging with every jostle of his fingers, pinpricks of small glass making themselves known with the twist of a doorknob.
An unopened first aid kit on the table. Dark room. Maruki sprawled on the bed, breathing.]
Don't you understand how infections come about? Sit up.
[ There's no telling how much time passes before he hears familiar steps in the hall, water running in the bathroom, the scrape of his own heavy door.
Is he expecting it? Sort of. It wasn't like the meltdown after Sleepr where they clearly both needed to let sleeping dogs lie, and that has been the singular time that either he or Akechi have been good at leaving the other alone.
He props up with the arm that isn't so severely torn to ribbons, reaches over to turn on the lamp next to his bed and squints at Akechi. As if it's any other night where he decides to enter the room after a 2 A.M. text exchange. ]
I could say the same to you.
[ He's... roughly 80% sure he can't make out a bandage on Akechi's hand. ]
I'll be able to heal us in the morning, though.
[ He sits up anyway. Head still swimming, but less violently than before. Stomach almost settled. ]
I can take care of it. Have a seat and we'll both patch up.
So you think. You don't know for certain. Solely relying on your persona to fix every single problem in your life is a recipe for disaster.
[Awakenings put users out of commission for days. Weeks. Abilities drain stamina. There are days even Akechi can't slog into the Metaverse after too many long nights prior.
That wasn't a normal attack - likely almighty in nature, but exceeding every known boundary he's experienced. Azathoth may need more than a few hours to recover. Maruki may need more than a day to regain the stamina. Odd nature of his persona aside, he can't imagine recovery happening overnight.
But he's sitting up - whatever. Minor wounds over his own body incomparable to the way his head throbs, the fatigue. He's gotten worse injuries from low level jack frosts - Maruki's persona healing the worst of it before it was knocked out of commission.
Akechi slogs over to the side table, flips the latch with his good hand and points up to the ceiling with the glass splinted one.]
Look up. I'm not arguing with you tonight, so sit still and do what I say.
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I don't have the energy to argue with you, Akechi.
[ Not even to correct the tremendously ironic misconception that he relies on Azathoth to fix every single problem in his life.
Maruki does as he's told, dutifully. Sits up straighter and tips his chin up toward the ceiling–
Though not before getting a closer look at his hand now that he doesn't have to squint just to make out the vague shapes of the second line on an eye chart. ]
If it turns out I can't heal you, tomorrow you ought to go to the clinic for that. And you're talking to me about probable infections...
[Tomorrow, when he pull some tweezers out and dedicate the energy to peeling every small piece from his palm. The clinic won't be necessary.
An alcohol wipe is tore open with his teeth after a failed attempt to pull it apart, the curl of a hand igniting flare after annoying flare.
He tries to pull back memories of videos, books, how he tended his own injuries in Mementos. In palaces. Pulls back the time Maruki wrapped his arms up in a dingy storefront.
Follows those same steps - disinfect, clean, ointment across his face. Too tired to be delicate or gentle. Clinical, basic work from someone unaccustomed to helping another.
He keeps his fingertips away from his eyes - presses palm under jaw to move his face left and right under the light. Minor wounds studied, larger ones tended. Neck bruised - no blood. That's an Azathoth problem.
Checks the base of his skull, the back of his head - injuries he may not be aware of after slamming into the ground. Bumps. No blood. ]
Perhaps you should start wearing that golden helmet you were given.
Oh, I can only imagine how much that would have hurt getting smashed into my eyes instead of my glasses.
[ Light, easy sarcasm. A joke despite it all.
For the most part, he takes it on the nose. A hissing inhale when Akechi disinfects the worst of the gouges, and a displeased noise when he touches the base of his skull, but that's it. ]
Actually, now that I think about it, it didn't look like there was room for my glasses beneath that thing... I wonder what that's about.
[ The bandages shift with the movement of his face as he talks. It's not a bad job Akechi did at all. Quick, efficient. Hopefully far less harrowing for him to have to deal with than that kaiju wound was.
A little guilt creeps into the edges of Maruki's heart then. It shouldn't – Akechi is the one who did this to him – but he's never exactly been in the habit of making others pay for what they've done. He only feels bad about not being able to take better care of himself. ]
[Maruki's entire face smashed like a pancake under a golden plate. A funny sight - Azathoth having to reconstruct an entire head would be interesting to watch.]
You'll find out, I suppose.
[Perception. Cognition. Maruki may not need them in the Metaverse. The world follows patterns and logic, despite how asinine certain situations seem or how to obvious can become inane. It's all based on real world sensibilities, to an extent. Maruki may not need glasses because in the Metaverse, he perceives his sight differently. It's simple.
He snaps his fingers in the air - waits for Maruki's eyes to follow the source of the noise. For him to squint at Akechi's mid-snap gesture and become little slits the further he pulls his hand away. The light might be bothering Maruki. It's certainly wearing on Akechi's ever pulsing headache.
No, Maruki won't be dealing with his arm. He doesn't ask. Not in the mood to do anything but mindlessly pull back the fabric of his sleeve and take stock of the damage. Stretches it out, turns it to see - the whole thing needs wrapped up, probably. Some grooves etched deep, others shallow and erratic.
The same routine - disinfect, wipe, ointment.]
Did you know hypothermia is a cause of death in flaying?
[Streaks of red swiped over with wipe after wipe.]
Skin is the largest organ, which I'm sure you know, but losing enough of it can cause the body to drop in temperature.
[Ointment after ointment.]
While nothing got to that point, you should be aware of how important it is to take care of skin damage immediately and appropriately. If I left you to do this without your glasses, you may have made the situation worse.
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Free from the tight coils of persona contorting his body, latching him to a spot and
Free from the Robin Hood's leash, image, a false personality hidden behind a just prince manifest.
Maruki's smiling. Akechi is too - manic and ferocious with his fingers wrapped around the handle of a knife in his chest, the other threading through his hair and-Loki is strong. Loki is unburdened. Loki doesn't have limits. Loki is wild and alive - floats behind him without intent to protect from the upcoming attack. Akechi's hit head on with it - doesn't bother to block or move. Laughter that -
Mocks. Thrives. Coats the sensation of blade sliding from his guts as he rips it out in one swift motion. Red blooming across his shirt, like an ocean made of thick crimson viscera. Like a boy turned god about to unleash his wrath on an unknowing world. He isn't in the Metaverse - a deep, twisting wound embedded and pulled out makes him dizzy, sick, and-
Happy - joyous.]
God, I live for this!
[Loud. Blooming like the spot on his chest. Riot Gun comes easy - Loki is strong. The healing tentacle will go down and everything, everything, everything will be hit and-
Akechi wastes no time in moving closer again, undeterred by a wound, emboldened by Loki behind him and-
Debilitate focused directly on Maruki - the only image his unblinking eyes are focused on.]
You're next in line to die!
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There are more important things to deal with first.
He doesn't know what hits him, but he knows instantly when it does – both he and Azathoth feeling drained, leaden, rooted to the spot. Some sort of nerf.
He doesn't know.
He doesn't like it.
Maruki straightens up, takes one look at Akechi advancing on him, and what needs to be done coalesces in his mind instantly. ]
I regret not pointing this out to you sooner... You shouldn't mistake our powers as being equal.
[ That was a nice Debilitate, Akechi.
Unfortunately, the Tentacles of Assistance and Protection are both still up and in near perfect health. They undo the bulk of Akechi's work in two fell swoops – it isn't the boost of power that Maruki's used to, but it's back to baseline, and that's good enough for him.
His favored attack has never worked on Robin Hood. Maruki knows that. But this persona – this Loki, he can't believe Akechi kept that under his tongue for all the times Maruki used goddamn Loki as an example when talking about the collective unconscious – is about as different from Robin Hood as can be.
Maruki doesn't waste another second once the tentacles have done their work. The enormous ball of pure, glowing energy that heralds Eternal Radiance forms in the sky above them, bright enough to blind for a split second before erupting into innumerable cosmic eyes firing off at Loki, at Akechi, at anything within striking distance. ]
cw: violent thoughts, murder
You shouldn't mistake our powers as being equal.
He knows.It's an infuriating realization that hits him with every new attack discovered in midnight training sessions, in the way Azathoth hits, hits, hits with multiple attacks in quick succession - a man new to this and yet thriving in such undeniable power.
The same power that strikes Loki's weakness - sends Akechi to knees, grasping the wet spot on his chest that's coating his whole front now. Dizzying. Nauseating. Intense Debilitate did little - ]
Oh no - I'm so scared! I don't give SHIT!
[Said with his knees digging into wet ground - You can't hurt me next on his lips because he isn't hurt. Isn't bleeding from his chest. Isn't pressed against his will by a power that exploited his weakness. Doesn't need a second, two seconds, three seconds to catch his breath, remove a blood coated glove from his body, half push himself up through sheer obstinance.
He can't stand in full - knees lock. Doesn't matter. Loki's alive behind him with all the fury in Akechi's heart, the injustice of the world
A teenager born with an undeniable, with teammates, friends and-
A man born with unfathomable power, lonely and rotten like him and-
Akechi Goro who stands below both, whether they breathe or not. No matter what he does - it's alwaysSecond best. He doesn't need them. Second best, despite everything. You shouldn't mistake our powers as being equal because Akechi has to resort to kills coated in viscera, silence and blood, instead of fog and agony.
Fuck them.
He can't breathe. Can. Loki prepares to enact Akechi's will, a column of swirling red lights surrounding the persona-] Do you really think your shitty attack will end this? That I'm so goddamn weak? Don't look down on me you piece of shit! You don't know where true power is - the broken chains on a heart. I'll shatter it again and again and again until you're dead!
[Loki's sword glows bright, bright, bright in Akechi's peripherals.
Red swirls, swirls, swirls and Akechi knows in a second - locking knees, a bleeding chest - none of it will matter. Call of Chaos explodes throughout - spreading from wound to body to brain in an instant.
And
everything
is so fucking meaningless.
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It's laughter. He's standing tall again, like nothing in the world has ever phased him and-
He's headed for Maruki again, Eigaon brewing, ready, targeted.] Try AGAIN, idiot!
cw brainwashing lmao here we go
As it happens – whatever it is – Maruki can only stare in open, wide-eyed fascination. It isn't an attack. It doesn't seem like a buff, either, not in a way that he's come to recognize so far.
But it gets Akechi up on his feet, and then some.
The blood isn't staunched. Not at all. That's the first thing Maruki catalogues. No healing to be seen, despite the undeniable surge of energy. It makes sense, of course – neither of Akechi's personas seem to have any capacity to heal. Why would they? He's hurt, he hurts, he wants the world to hurt along with him.
Idiot. He's going to get himself killed.
The Tentacle of Healing regenerates with a wave of his hand as Akechi cackles through the mounting power coursing through and around him. Maruki's just about to direct it – if it doesn't knock Akechi out of whatever spell he's put himself under, it can at least take care of that gaping wound – when another attack he hasn't experienced yet hits.
It feels brutal. Dark and heavy, antithetical to everything he feels with Azathoth. A nightmare, sleep paralysis, a demon on his chest. Azathoth can tank the hit fine, as it always does, but the utter newness of the sensation has Maruki dazed for a moment, choking on black smoke.
He straightens, staggers farther back from Akechi, tries to get a good look at him through his frenzy. There's a look in his eye that's almost, almost recognizable. If placid, peaceful emptiness had a twin opposite to it in every way but the one that matters most.
He grabs at his chest, coughs again through a squint before raising his voice. ]
Is that what you tried to do here?
[ To the gelfling they targeted. To whoever else he said he tested a surefire method on. ]
Maybe it only works on someone whose cognition is so susceptible to manipulation.
[ There's no one he saw become enthralled more times than Akechi, after all. ]
I wonder if my ability would work on you too, then. I wonder who you'd become.
[ It's an empty threat, and one said with nothing but seething, sneering compassion. Maruki would never do it. But he's furious with Akechi for hiding so much for so long, and he's too caught up in the battle to bite his words back – it might be a justified end befitting a Detective Prince, being coerced into playing that role and keeping up that perception for the rest of his life.
Healing forgotten for the moment, he focuses all of his energy on taking Akechi down with that same Bless attack again, curious to see what effect it will have on him in this new state. ]
cw: violent thoughts, gore, murder, self harm (???)
What
he tried
to do
To a meaningless nothing - a worthless piece of trash who didn't see it coming, saw nothing coming, Loki appeared to capture that trash trash trash and nothing happenedNothing happened
Something happens
Maruki halted. Stopped. Surprised.It
feels
great.
A violent hum follows every vein, pours out of his chest with every spurt of blood from his own erratic, unstoppable unstoppable he is unstoppable movements towards Maruki. Joker never got to see this - Maruki does. Joker never saw Akechi alight with the flame of battle and an all too well worn hysteria that phantom walls in a dark coated world used to absorb. Joker only saw Akechi when bone, gut and gore gave life to a blank wall behind him.Joker gave
life to everyone
around him. Akechi feltalive
dead
andMaruki's flesh, bone, and guts will create a new reality in this fake, fake world.
The attack hits. Akechi doesn't try to dodge. Back to his knees in crippling agony that he should feel, doesn't feel, can't feel with the freedom of his soul, unchained, untied, unleashed to keep going. He's strong - so strong. Loki doesn't make him strong - Loki exists because he's strong and he-
stands up again
Cackling, both hands threading and tearing and ripping at strands against his skull. It doesn't hurt - nothing does.He'll kill Maruki.]
Oh, you're merciless, aren't you?
[Taunting. Wild. Happy. An attack already at the helm - the world's swimming from overwhelming euphoria as Loki burns, burns, burns behind him with every tug, tug, tug and-
Maruki would like
to paint his soul across this world
so akechi won't stop until he does.
Healing tentacle is the target for EIGAON - nothing to get in the way and-He's back up. Forced up. His feet, legs, body pushed back up again and again and again and again and againandagainandagainandagainandagainandagain. He'll kill Maruki. He'll kill Shido. He'll kill Shido and-
Dizzy. Stumbles. Stands. Loki - with Loki - because of Loki - because of his willpower to create Loki-]
Die, die, die, die, die, DIE!
[Knife thrown to the ground, Loki preparing to hit Maruki with Laevateinn and-
Akechi pulls the gun from his side pocket, damp shirt leaking to his pants and lining it up with Maruki's face.
Slightly above his glasses, right between the eyes, against a
tile floor
starlit sky.
cw gun violence, murder, physical assault
He's only had a couple seconds to register the gun when Laevateinn makes contact.
Maruki has gotten used to taking Robin Hood's attacks on the nose, but Loki is another beast entirely. The great spectral sword comes down on him and he hits the ground, hard. Pain cracks and jolts up from his knees from the force of the fall, down from his head from the strike, palms scraping and slicing against the ground as he tries to brace himself so as not to collapse under its weight entirely, a violent ringing in his ears.
His breath catches and seizes in his chest with the aftershocks of that pain – somehow, despite appearances, not magical in nature, entirely physical and much harder to shake off because of it – as he lifts his head to see–
The gun.
The same gun pointed at him in eternally dark woods.
The same gun Akechi must use back in their reality – the same gun that he will more than likely find himself up against after they return, his own hubris pushing the only ally he's ever had to turn on him, and he won't have Azathoth, he won't have anything, he'll be so useless. ]
Don't.
[ Despite the blows he's taken, his voice remains steady, strong.
It isn't fear that he feels, despite–
Endless white fields, an empty paddock where chickens would be raised in the spring, the bare branches of weeping trees, a frozen over pond, a home with the door left wide open despite the snowfall. Broken glass, footprints in the snow. The clatter of furniture overturned, shouts of confusion and panic. Gun fired once. A guttural, animal noise like none he's ever heard. Complete chaos. Rumi's screams. Fired again, and again, and again.
Maruki never saw the gun. Only heard it. Never saw anyone get shot. Only saw the bodies. By the time he emerged into the main house, the damage was done, the gun was gone. Frozen. Hadn't even been brave enough to try to get between the men and their only escape route. Could only watch in terror as hands wrapped around Rumi's throat before slamming her into a wall, could only unstick himself long enough to run to the door and watch them flee, trying to remember the car, the only car on the road, the empty road in an empty town on an empty day when nothing should have happened, and he couldn't do anything about it at all, never been more useless–
No, it isn't fear at all. ]
You're not going to kill me here, Akechi.
[ Maruki stands fast, all the blood rushing to his head, a hand out to brace himself against Azathoth's chassis as a wave of tentacles shoots forth to restrain Akechi again.
Knife on the ground – good.
Gun wrenched out of his hand and thrown aside – better.
Maruki doesn't direct Azathoth to attack. Doesn't think that far ahead. Doesn't think at all. Only advances on Akechi, wrapped in a mass of tentacles he'll surely soon be able to break free from, bleeding, gasping, laughing, psychotic. Tempestuous conviction rages in his voice – because he isn't scared of Akechi. He never has been. ]
You're not going to kill me until you have a good reason to do it.
[ Fist clenched. Arm pulled back. Useless. Knuckles connecting with jaw. Inelegant, unpracticed, but vicious, more than hard enough to hurt them both.
Maruki grips it in the opposite hand, pain radiating across knuckles that will bloom with bruises, and staggers back from him again so the Tentacle of Healing, battered but still functional, can finally take care of that goddamn stab wound. ]
CW: VIOLENCE!!!!!!!!! of all kinds
His
sole
purpose
seek
the truth
And he finds it in Maruki's gaze. Resolute. Fearless. A far cry from the man cowering from an ant in the marketplace, worried about a knife in his direction.
His jaw aches
from the will of Maruki Takuto.The blood staunches against his chest - his body sewing itself back together, everything else falling apart. Cooper crawls up his throat, into his mouth - over teeth, tongue, coating the insides of his cheeks. Eigaon misses the healing tentacle completely - the jolt from a fist against skull makes his vision swim.
Riot Gun misses - targeting tree, ground and earth instead of the man two feet from him, the tentacles writhing around him.]Oh yeah? I decide the reason.
[
Mocking.
Bitter.
Lost and
Found by a man who sees
Every part of him and for the first timeAkechi sees him.
Subdued for a moment. Breaking free the next. Loki-Appears. Vanishes. Flickers back and forth and back and forth and back and forth and a shining, shining sword glowsglowsglowsglows behind him, but-
Blood spit from his mouth. Mind
scrambling
running
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Whether you live or die - none of it means SHIT TO ME!
[Loki hovers - ever watchful, ever present, ever a true guardian in a world full of rot and-
Akechi lunges for the man, intent to grappling him right to the ground.]
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Because all of his focus is tunneled down onto Akechi, barreling into him, knocking all the breath out of him as his back hits grass, stones, dirt. ]
We both know that's not true, you lunatic–
[ If Akechi didn't care about his life at all, he wouldn't have spent months warning him to keep his head down when they return to their true reality. It isn't only about staying out of Akechi's way for his own sake.
If Akechi didn't care about his life at all, he would have shot him in his sleep several times over by now.
Maruki knows he's at a disadvantage, has no real experience in a physical altercation. He brings one arm up to guard his face, drives the other elbow into Akechi's ribs as hard as he can to try to get him off.
And despite all of this – despite everything that's transpired tonight, hit after hit, threat after threat – there is no one in either reality that he feels he respects more than Akechi. Now more than ever. Maruki wheezes out a laugh, strikes him again, and needles, needles, because he knows he can, because he knows Akechi can take it as well as he doles it out. ]
Two personas from a broken mind? One that has the ability to shatter it further?
[ In the tone of a mildly fascinated Detective Prince: ]
You really are full of surprises.
cw: violence, eye damage, graphic violence. mmmm just dont click.
Akechi is delighted
because Maruki was never a waste of his time. Without Azathoth-He's stronger.
A persona shaped god won't be around forever and Marukifights and fights and fights
Like his life depends on it. It does. Akechi doesn't hesitate to peel both gloves from his hand, press into the elbow trying to jab air out of him - it works.It doesn't stop him.
The dizzying lack of air acting as oil.]Shut up! [A splintered, airless laugh.] I'll make your last moments on here the most painful.
[He throws all his weight into pushing Maruki's arm to his face - fist directed to glasses. Hits until shards embed in his knuckles. Until he presses against Maruki's eye to dig those pieces into eyelid, cornea, pupil - destroy his vision. Exploit a weakness. Use it against him. Pinpricks rip at his skin - thin red lines all over his hands.
Nails dig into the flesh of his arm. Palm presses broken frame against his face. Thin lines shredded down whatever exposed flesh he can - peeling, ripping, tearing like his body will exude smoke and rot instead of muscle and blood.]
You think you know me? My mind is fine. Nothing is broken. I'm in control of you, Shido, and every other piece of shit here that falls for that pathetic act-
[
Shreds, and digs
andlistens to every piece of bait
andRips and tears
andDestroys everything in sight.
Skin embeds under his fingertips - the same tracks torn into again and again and again and again and againandagainandagainandagain until it stains red, red, red on his hands. No gloves to cover it up this time. The sink will drain crimson for awhile. Akechi will wash his handsone
two
three
hours until every thought spirals down the drain.] You're so fucking stupid!cw eye trauma, graphic violence - truly you should not be reading this thread, stranger
Maruki can't see. Can't hear whatever sounds he's making, or Akechi's cruel taunts, or anything beyond the blaring siren static of his own mind. Can't see. Can't breathe without hitching and choking on a stuttered gasp. Can't see. Can't fucking see. ]
Akechi–
[ Weakened, but not pleading. Faint, but still furious.
The same way he didn't know how he would react to having to fight until Akechi snarled at him to kill that kaiju, he didn't know how he would react to true violence done against him until Akechi pinned him down and tore him apart.
Eren once asked him if he'd rather lay down and die than be a burden on someone else. It was early, so early. Maruki hadn't even moved into the castle yet. At that point – yes, of course, there were any number of instances where he'd rather lay down than whatever the alternative was.
Things have changed.
He's changed.
Azathoth rages in the back of his mind, but it's nothing compared to Maruki's own will to live, to fight.
He grabs blindly at whatever he can – Akechi's shirt, arm, face, hair – tries to shove him off – no luck, and some of the blood has pooled down into his mouth, and he splutters on it, but he still fights– ]
I won't tell you again, get the hell off of me, now!
[ Neither of them can see it – Akechi too singularly focused on his target, Maruki stuck in flickering, bloodied darkness – but Azathoth grows as the power within Maruki ratchets up to an inferno.
No, he won't die here. He's only just begun. ]
cw: ohhhh graphic violence oooo eye trauma, self harm (??), rock based violence!
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and-Wretched noises are fuel. Matches against fire - stacked over and over and over and over again and-
Akechi doesn't notice a thing. Azathoth doesn't exist in his mind's eye or otherwise. Loki's presence ever shifting, a spiral of agony and joy bursting through his chest with little pop, pop, pops that align with every thrashing motion, every unsuccessful attempt to remove him.
He won't relent. Never. Shards deep into his own hand, chunks he grips tight until his palms are coated in the same bright bright crimson as Maruki's cheeks, his eyes and-
That palm slams into Maruki's eye with force - face, cheek, ear, chin, jaw. Bare skin is a target. Akechi shares the pain - every slice pushes the glass in. Facing consequences.
Maruki's eyes are lost under thrashes
glass
A broken frame
A broken life
In a rural home with life tinted walls
In a rural town with damp, damp, grass under living corpses
In a small apartment with nothing left to lose.
Hand tearing into eye, the other full of peeled skin against his nails, dried blood staining and-
A rock - crueler than gun, or knife. Small enough to settle into the grooves of his hand, pointed enough to be a problem-
He
wants
Maruki
to hurt.
Because he's rotten. Because Akechi's cruel. Because both are stuck in muck and mud, festering uncontained wounds that spew pus and drainage. Sick. Spewing false cures while sharing disease and-He slams the rock into Maruki's neck.
again
and again
and again.
Azathoth is strong because Maruki is strong.
Maruki is fighting. Maruki will fight. Maruki will rip, tear, destroy to get Akechi off of him on the tile floor, in a dark alleyway, beside a colorful poster -
Stone slams into his neck again
again
and again
and again.
Because he needs to learn what it will take to kill Akechi Goro if he wants to survive.]cw graphic violence, eye trauma, near death experience
But whatever it is hits again, and again, and again, and again, and again, and again–
At some point, shock sets in and the pain stops registering at all. His vision stops fading from the glass dug into his eyes. His ears stop ringing from the echoes of his own shouting. He stops being able to shout. He stops being able to make any noise at all. Something in his throat cracks, snaps, collapses in on itself– he wants to scream, can't– wants to breathe, can't–
The volume of reality steadily turned down until it goes mute, his own labored half-breaths and his heart kicking into overtime the only sounds rattling around his emptied mind.
It doesn't look like Eden. It doesn't look like anything at all.
There are countless explanations of what happens to consciousness when death draws near. Spiritual explanations, religious ones. Psychological explanations, neurological ones. Maruki can't claim to be an expert in any of them. Has cognitive psience ever had anything to say on the matter? Likely not. It's research he could pioneer. It's research that could get him killed on a chilly winter's night in his tiny apartment kitchen– in an empty alley behind a trendy cafe or an udon restaurant or a jazz club– in a cognitive world whose shape he doesn't yet know– or here, on a grassy knoll behind a castle in the reality that delivered his life straight into the hands of the person who's meant to end it.
He can't fight anymore, but his synapses fire at a rapid pace, trying to stave off the heavy blanket of peace settling over his cognition, and–
Maruki draws a huge, gulping gasp of air as his eyes fly open. Throat structurally sound once more, eyes blurry with blood and tears but fully functional. He sees Akechi above him, the rock raised above his head, the blood coating his hands, the front of his shirt, his face, everywhere, everywhere.
A red-stained grin blooms across Maruki's face. A breathless laugh escapes.
It's over. ]
Azathoth.
[ The sky above them splits open as dark energy coalesces into a great glowing orb, and Maruki wrenches his arms free to grab Akechi around his knitted-together ribs and shove him sideways, down into the grass next to him, with every ounce of strength returned to him with that heal. He can't escape this blast, and he doesn't want to. He just needs to make sure it hits Akechi as hard as it hits him.
Tyrant Chaos aims inexorably at them both, and in the resulting explosion of blinding light, Maruki's only coherent thought is that if they kill each other like this, they'll deserve every second they spend in Inferna together. ]
cw: emeto, murder, suicide, graphic violence! suicidal ideation (????)
and it's what he deserves.
Exploitable. Ruined. Rotten.Maruki will live
and it's what he deserves.
Resourceful. Unrelenting. Powerful.Stone against skin, a rupture that twists thin streaks of red, muscle pulsing with air that escapes against Akechi's fingers. A hint of white that might be his spine and-
A discarded prince can never win against a decayed king.
Bone and flesh mend under his stained fingers. Expected. He doesn't fight it. Almost glad for it. Infuriated with it. Work undone in a blink, years of cultivated power overturned by natural gifts.
He can't stand it. The glass in his palm stings and -
Bruised ribs and sore body slammed into the ground. Expected.
Maruki's eyes are broken and bright under an ever growing light forming high above them.
Akechi doesn't look because it's nowhere near the brilliant shade pressing him down with gaze and arm.
He just
wanted
to burn
as bright as they do. Did.
Joker. Maruki. And a grotesque prince playing pretend.He chokes out a laugh because he
wants
to stop
and he can't.Because he wants
to live
and he can't. Because he wants toplay chess
with a friend
in a shitty cafe nestled in dark alleyway. Because he wants tosit at a bar
in a shitty shoebox apartment
two subway rides away from a place that will never be home.He wants to
to stop
he wants
to stop
he wants to stop
he wants to stop
he can't stop
he'll never stop
It's too late to stop.
Maruki's always there - even now, as he tries to push his exhausted, weary body beyond its limit, beyond the thrall of a distorted ability befitting of evil, of a monster, and Maruki's always there -
Confident, unshakeable Maruki -
He could leave and he doesn't. Stays by his side, pressed into the muck and dirt, willingly festering and rotting alongside. Akechi pulled him down. Maruki could rise. Akechi can't. Maruki could. Maruki doesn't.
Maruki's always there even as -
Blinding, piercing light fills his vision and then it doesn't. A flicker. A thought.
Joker saw a light, maybe, as he tried to focus on a dark tunnel aimed at him.
His mother saw a light, maybe, when the sun touched her dangling body in a small room that felt more like home than anything since.There's nothing
and he thinks he's happy.
Then there's something and thick white foam is flowing from his mouth with lurching haggard breaths. A lack of food a blessing as everything inside his stomach hits blood soaked ground. On hands and knees, he doesn't remember getting up - an axe is hitting his skull again, again, again in ten even splinters that he's sure he could feel if he could move his glass coated hand to check. Shaking. Weak. Attack unclear. Attack unknown. Attack new.Azathoth is strong because Maruki is strong and -
Akechi never had a doubt otherwise.]
cw get cared for after ALL THAT, IDIOT
For a long moment he only lays there, gasping, bruised, burning, unseeing. Pressed flat into the ground, chest heaving. His mouth opens, nothing escapes.
At his side–
Akechi breathes. He isn't dead.
Neither of them are.
The white slowly bleeds from his vision. A blurry form next to him. Curled in on himself, hunched, slight. Matted hair, streaks and swaths of blood.
Maruki reaches out–
And then he's up in motions so violently staggering that he thinks he's about to get pinned down and attacked again, but instead he only drags himself to hands and knees under his own power, of course, of course. Irrepressible, independent, inevitable Akechi.
In a marketplace of an unfamiliar town– on a dusty road leading to a castle– at a bar in a kitchen slowly becoming his own– in a ruined city filled with monsters tall as skyscrapers– in a living whipped up into a frenzy by an unknowable alien wind– in a perpetually dark forest– in a lake that knew too much– in a bathhouse that heard too much– in a club with low soothing music, in a cafe with obstinate rage– in every late night message and visit and training session– in a glowing alcove on a cliff overlooking a labyrinth they'll one day destroy together– in a grassy clearing stained with both their blood–
There's Akechi. There has always been Akechi.
Maruki hears him retching. Pushes himself to sit up, every muscle in his body screaming against it. Shattered and bent frames fall off his face, into his lap. He reaches out, lays a hand between his shoulder blades as he splutters and wheezes. ]
Akechi.
[ Voice rough, hoarse. Throat burning. Head pounding.
Maruki swallows. Rubs his hand back and forth, even that motion painful. Tries again. ]
Akechi. You're alright. We're done here.
DIRE DIRE DIRE OHHH EVIL CAITLIN
But Maruki says his name - tired, pained and rasp. Not a single hint of disdain or anger. The contact between his shoulders no longer feels malicious. The splitting headache dulls with the up, down, up, down, up, down, up, despite his muscles tensing with the movement.
He says they're done. Says Akechi's alright. They are done. He is alright.
Body stilled. Repetitive motion. Questions on his lips and-
It doesn't matter if he asks 'What are you doing?'
He already knows. Maruki's doing what he always does - stays there. Is there. Present.
If he asks 'What are you doing?'Because Maruki doesn't flinch when Akechi spits vile and venom, fist and rock.
If he asks 'What are you doing?Because he's foolish. Stupid. All resolve and will.
Loyal, to a fault.Akechi inhales - slow and quiet. Stomach lurching with nothing inside. It's safe to push himself back to his knees - to take in the broken face next to him. His will unshattered. Unshaken.
They're done.]
They awoke at the same time.
[Voice raw and scratchy. Soft, but not by choice. He doesn't know why he's talking - the same bizarre compulsion he felt at the bathhouse, at the convenience store, on a grassy hillside.]
It felt like this.
[Miserable. Wretched. Fatigue peeling back every layer of skin, exposing nerve to air - every single movement an exhausting effort that drains what little is left inside a person. Maruki may never experience a traditional awakening, but that direct blast of divine energy comes close. It feels like vindication.
He presses a hand against Maruki's shoulder - gentle, at first. Inhale. Exhale. Loki's thrall long gone and nestled back between the barbs in his chest.
Then there's pressure forced down onto the barely mobile man, as Akechi pushes himself up to his feet. No glass in that palm. He tries to loosen small shards with a shake of his other hand and-
He
stands.
And heReaches out with the same stone wielding hand that sentenced Maruki to death seconds ago. Stained. Nails torn and chipped.]
Get up.
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There are some kernels of truth even in the lies that Akechi has told him over the months they've circled one another. How it felt to awaken to a mysterious power alone– and now, knowing that it happened twice at once– and with what Maruki has been able to piece together about how young he must have been–
It isn't pity that he feels toward Akechi. Not at all. Only a profound sense of gratitude. I'm glad you're here, even now, even after all that transpired as the sun set over Somnius.
Maruki takes his hand without a second thought, hauls up unsteadily to his feet.
Azathoth must have dissipated somewhere in their half-consciousness. Maruki takes stock of his own injuries, then Akechi's. Tries to call it forth again.
No luck.
That's new. Even after the battle against the Green Knight, he'd had no problem summoning Azathoth. Even before the spaghetti.
The difference is, he'd been in good shape then. Battered from the fight, but not as badly as now – death was never a tangible fear in his mind, guarded as he was by Azathoth – and then healed of his superficial wounds by Venat. Maruki looks down at the broken remnants of his glasses in his hand, remembers the delicate way she mended them for him before, slid them back onto his face with a smile like every star in the sky.
He closes his eyes, sighs through his nose. No Azathoth. No healing. It must have taken the very last of his spirit to save him from certain death and reverse only the worst of his injuries, because everything else remains.
The shards of glass embedded in Akechi's palm catch his eye, turn his stomach. ]
Let's get cleaned up.
[ A step toward the castle, two, three. Testing his strength. It's not like the morning they had to stagger out of the Enchanted Garden. In some ways, it's better; in others, much worse.
Maruki looks over at Akechi, more drained than he's ever seen him. ]
Lean on me if you need to.
[ Not that he expects Akechi to need to, or to accept the offer even if he does, but the state of him–
Maruki feels half-dead from what Akechi was able to do to him under that power. He can scarcely imagine how it must feel to be the one consumed by it. How it must feel to have two souls sprung forth from your own, whether they're cooperative or at war. How it must feel to have to maintain more masks on top of that. How it must feel to sleep little, eat little, work constantly, navigate the complex web of Masayoshi Shido on top of that. How completely depleted Akechi must be on a near constant basis, has been for years, still is even here.
It doesn't matter if Akechi needs it, actually. Maruki grips his arm with steadying force anyway, pulls him along. ]
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If their positions were reversed, Akechi would have wasted no time in telling Maruki exactly what he thought of his 'help' - where he should shove his hand. A notion that doesn't seem to occur in whatever crossed wires fill his mind.
But they're both up.
They're okay.
An inkling in the back of his mind pursuing what that power was, even in the throes of exhaustion. No Azathoth appearing to lick their wounds - it's likely Maruki is spent. Loki and Robin Hood remain persistent and silent, not that they would provide any help in this moment.
Maruki says something. Akechi didn't catch it, but it's obvious what he meant by the way he heads towards the castle with slow steps, shaky breath.
He follows. The offer heard, ignored and-
A hand back on his arm, tugging an unwilling body forward.
He'll never understand Maruki. Even if they spent 20 more years together, only separated by a single wall, free time spent in each other's company more often than not, Akechi will never untangle what makes him tick. What makes him accept abuse, violence, and no repayment other than a shared resolve to go back to Tokyo.
It's so goddamn maddening-
That he wouldn't have been able to peel himself off the grass without him - couldn't move forward without him.
Akechi hates him - deeply. A sensation pooling in his heart.]
I need my gun - let go and do whatever you need to inside. I'll follow shortly.
[Can Maruki even see right now? Akechi has no clue, but he assumes the man will figure it out somehow. Touch the walls and follow the path. Maybe one of their housemates will pull him in.]
cw injury descriptions (i don't think they're graphic, but. shrug)
[ In truth, he can't remember. Even if he hadn't come close to death and then knocked himself out anyway, things were so frantic that he wasn't paying too much attention to what the tentacles were doing at that point.
Still, he turns around, wavering a little as he does, and squints through scenery that's completely fuzzy. ]
It probably would have been thrown into the trees. It shouldn't be too far.
[ He raises an arm to point. The long, stinging strips of shredded away skin stretch with the motion and burn. He grimaces, looks at his arm. Hadn't realized how bloody it was. Just a red blur.
His stomach lurches once more. It's the most of his own blood he's ever seen outside of his body. ]
See you inside.
[ It's a slow walk back in. A slower ascent up the stairs. The barely-eaten food in the kitchen is ignored; it'll be a pain in the ass to clean up tomorrow, but who knows, maybe The Humanoid Garbage Disposal will end up coming home and inhaling it all. Maruki can't even remember what he made for dinner. Something with extra mushrooms, nearly always. His head spins as he climbs another few steps. He needs–
To clean himself up. Hands, arms, face, neck washed in the bathroom sink, the warm water and soap as painful as lemon juice. Checks himself in the mirror, leaning in close to be able to focus his eyesight. Deep gouges, nasty latticework scrapes, nicks and cuts everywhere. Scratches like the claw marks of a feral animal. His throat may have been healed, but his neck is already bruising black and blue.
He knows he should patch up the worst of the wounds, but he's passed the point of exhaustion and entered into a dark, dizzy state that feels a little too familiar. With the blood rinsed down the drain, he grabs one of their many first aid kids and stumbles into his bedroom down the hall.
He should change. Doesn't. Collapses into bed in the clothes that are still stained with grass and dirt and both of their blood. In the morning, after a good long rest, Azathoth will be in rare form and will fully heal him, he's certain of it. Only then will he worry about mundane shit like laundry.
For now, all that matters is going horizontal, staring up at the ceiling until it stops spinning. The first aid kit is abandoned on his bedside table. His phone buzzes in his pocket. He doesn't check it. Only lays there and breathes, slowly going from a ragged pant to the carefully counted breaths that he teaches to his patients.
He can't sleep yet, despite everything. Can't even rest his eyes without that last image of Akechi above him before glass shattered down into his face, that sense memory of torn flesh and contused tissue. ]
cw: injury description cont!
Awhile. The knife is gone - he doesn't care enough about the dulled blade to give more than a cursory glance around the yard.
And by the time he pulls himself into the doorway, past forgotten meals and into a shared bathroom with a red tinted sink, drops on the edges that denote recent use-
He just doesn't care anymore.
Quiet mind. Blissful reprieve as he follows an all too familiar routine of rinsing bloodied hands for-
Awhile. Repetitive. Mindless. Stings with every tug of thick glass, another stream of red to join the spiraling pool of it, following the thin lines of his palm. Small slivers too deep to pinch out. Impossible to push out. He ignores it and-
Face washed - hair rinsed in the sink. A deep purple settles along his cheek, swelling apparent under his eye and exacerbating an already annoying dark circle. Soreness felt with any minor jaw movement. Shirt coated red from a stab wound with a similar bloom of colors - it almost looks like Loki's spreading across his body.
There are plenty of first aid kits. He ignores every single one of them because-
The fight is a shared responsibility. Both of them egging the other on and-
He remembers that Maruki isn't accustomed to this and-
It would be a shame if he died from minor wounds in his bed after surviving a brutal assault by an ally's hand.
The door's never locked - he walks in, palm stinging with every jostle of his fingers, pinpricks of small glass making themselves known with the twist of a doorknob.
An unopened first aid kit on the table. Dark room. Maruki sprawled on the bed, breathing.]
Don't you understand how infections come about? Sit up.
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Is he expecting it? Sort of. It wasn't like the meltdown after Sleepr where they clearly both needed to let sleeping dogs lie, and that has been the singular time that either he or Akechi have been good at leaving the other alone.
He props up with the arm that isn't so severely torn to ribbons, reaches over to turn on the lamp next to his bed and squints at Akechi. As if it's any other night where he decides to enter the room after a 2 A.M. text exchange. ]
I could say the same to you.
[ He's... roughly 80% sure he can't make out a bandage on Akechi's hand. ]
I'll be able to heal us in the morning, though.
[ He sits up anyway. Head still swimming, but less violently than before. Stomach almost settled. ]
I can take care of it. Have a seat and we'll both patch up.
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[Awakenings put users out of commission for days. Weeks. Abilities drain stamina. There are days even Akechi can't slog into the Metaverse after too many long nights prior.
That wasn't a normal attack - likely almighty in nature, but exceeding every known boundary he's experienced. Azathoth may need more than a few hours to recover. Maruki may need more than a day to regain the stamina. Odd nature of his persona aside, he can't imagine recovery happening overnight.
But he's sitting up - whatever. Minor wounds over his own body incomparable to the way his head throbs, the fatigue. He's gotten worse injuries from low level jack frosts - Maruki's persona healing the worst of it before it was knocked out of commission.
Akechi slogs over to the side table, flips the latch with his good hand and points up to the ceiling with the glass splinted one.]
Look up. I'm not arguing with you tonight, so sit still and do what I say.
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[ Not even to correct the tremendously ironic misconception that he relies on Azathoth to fix every single problem in his life.
Maruki does as he's told, dutifully. Sits up straighter and tips his chin up toward the ceiling–
Though not before getting a closer look at his hand now that he doesn't have to squint just to make out the vague shapes of the second line on an eye chart. ]
If it turns out I can't heal you, tomorrow you ought to go to the clinic for that. And you're talking to me about probable infections...
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[Tomorrow, when he pull some tweezers out and dedicate the energy to peeling every small piece from his palm. The clinic won't be necessary.
An alcohol wipe is tore open with his teeth after a failed attempt to pull it apart, the curl of a hand igniting flare after annoying flare.
He tries to pull back memories of videos, books, how he tended his own injuries in Mementos. In palaces. Pulls back the time Maruki wrapped his arms up in a dingy storefront.
Follows those same steps - disinfect, clean, ointment across his face. Too tired to be delicate or gentle. Clinical, basic work from someone unaccustomed to helping another.
He keeps his fingertips away from his eyes - presses palm under jaw to move his face left and right under the light. Minor wounds studied, larger ones tended. Neck bruised - no blood. That's an Azathoth problem.
Checks the base of his skull, the back of his head - injuries he may not be aware of after slamming into the ground. Bumps. No blood. ]
Perhaps you should start wearing that golden helmet you were given.
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[ Light, easy sarcasm. A joke despite it all.
For the most part, he takes it on the nose. A hissing inhale when Akechi disinfects the worst of the gouges, and a displeased noise when he touches the base of his skull, but that's it. ]
Actually, now that I think about it, it didn't look like there was room for my glasses beneath that thing... I wonder what that's about.
[ The bandages shift with the movement of his face as he talks. It's not a bad job Akechi did at all. Quick, efficient. Hopefully far less harrowing for him to have to deal with than that kaiju wound was.
A little guilt creeps into the edges of Maruki's heart then. It shouldn't – Akechi is the one who did this to him – but he's never exactly been in the habit of making others pay for what they've done. He only feels bad about not being able to take better care of himself. ]
I can do my arm. Really.
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You'll find out, I suppose.
[Perception. Cognition. Maruki may not need them in the Metaverse. The world follows patterns and logic, despite how asinine certain situations seem or how to obvious can become inane. It's all based on real world sensibilities, to an extent. Maruki may not need glasses because in the Metaverse, he perceives his sight differently. It's simple.
He snaps his fingers in the air - waits for Maruki's eyes to follow the source of the noise. For him to squint at Akechi's mid-snap gesture and become little slits the further he pulls his hand away. The light might be bothering Maruki. It's certainly wearing on Akechi's ever pulsing headache.
No, Maruki won't be dealing with his arm. He doesn't ask. Not in the mood to do anything but mindlessly pull back the fabric of his sleeve and take stock of the damage. Stretches it out, turns it to see - the whole thing needs wrapped up, probably. Some grooves etched deep, others shallow and erratic.
The same routine - disinfect, wipe, ointment.]
Did you know hypothermia is a cause of death in flaying?
[Streaks of red swiped over with wipe after wipe.]
Skin is the largest organ, which I'm sure you know, but losing enough of it can cause the body to drop in temperature.
[Ointment after ointment.]
While nothing got to that point, you should be aware of how important it is to take care of skin damage immediately and appropriately. If I left you to do this without your glasses, you may have made the situation worse.
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cw eye trauma, graphic violence