He didn't feel forced into being Overlord and King of Bel. He'd make that decision every single time except for in the worlds where he doesn't. Where he lives instead under the thumb of God and plays the part of Messiah.
It's a deplorable thought, to not rally and fight against such oppression. The desire for freedom above all else echoes in that empty spot that once have must housed a soul. Demons are creatures of Desires and Wants. They do what they want. Whatever that Want may be.
A contract is in direct conflict of that. Kazuya knows that now, that it's also an acceptance that whoever holds it is stronger than the demon it has power over. That's the part that bothers him. Has bothered him since he arrived, that he would have signed such a thing, and signed away his freedom with it. All for a wish that in the grand scheme of things, probably won't ever come true.
So Akechi is right, in that he needs to find the power to stand on his own two legs somewhere. To figure his shit out on his own, because at the end of the day, relying on people is only going to get them into trouble. He's right in saying that he should find a way to use the contract against the holder, but then the problem becomes that he still doesn't know who it is. Vaeros is dead. If he was the one who held that power, then he should have been freed from that control. Should be able to do and go where he pleases as he pleases, and he can't.
Which means there's someone else.]
I get it.
[He does. Akechi isn't wrong. But it also feels like he doesn't quite understand what Kazuya is asking of him either. He can't simply kill himself, and if there comes a day when his contract is held in hand, if it happens before he figures out his freedom, then he needs someone on the outside who can at least temporarily remove him from the picture.]
I don't think of it really as giving up, though. I have all the time in the world, but the truth is at any point that contract I have can be called upon for any number of reasons. Maybe I've figured something out in that time, maybe I haven't. It's the latter I'm more concerned about. It's one thing to have a plan, but having a back up in case things go awry isn't necessarily a terrible thing, is it? Cover all your bases. Gather knowledge, make the best choices you can in that moment.
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He didn't feel forced into being Overlord and King of Bel. He'd make that decision every single time except for in the worlds where he doesn't. Where he lives instead under the thumb of God and plays the part of Messiah.
It's a deplorable thought, to not rally and fight against such oppression. The desire for freedom above all else echoes in that empty spot that once have must housed a soul. Demons are creatures of Desires and Wants. They do what they want. Whatever that Want may be.
A contract is in direct conflict of that. Kazuya knows that now, that it's also an acceptance that whoever holds it is stronger than the demon it has power over. That's the part that bothers him. Has bothered him since he arrived, that he would have signed such a thing, and signed away his freedom with it. All for a wish that in the grand scheme of things, probably won't ever come true.
So Akechi is right, in that he needs to find the power to stand on his own two legs somewhere. To figure his shit out on his own, because at the end of the day, relying on people is only going to get them into trouble. He's right in saying that he should find a way to use the contract against the holder, but then the problem becomes that he still doesn't know who it is. Vaeros is dead. If he was the one who held that power, then he should have been freed from that control. Should be able to do and go where he pleases as he pleases, and he can't.
Which means there's someone else.]
I get it.
[He does. Akechi isn't wrong. But it also feels like he doesn't quite understand what Kazuya is asking of him either. He can't simply kill himself, and if there comes a day when his contract is held in hand, if it happens before he figures out his freedom, then he needs someone on the outside who can at least temporarily remove him from the picture.]
I don't think of it really as giving up, though. I have all the time in the world, but the truth is at any point that contract I have can be called upon for any number of reasons. Maybe I've figured something out in that time, maybe I haven't. It's the latter I'm more concerned about. It's one thing to have a plan, but having a back up in case things go awry isn't necessarily a terrible thing, is it? Cover all your bases. Gather knowledge, make the best choices you can in that moment.