You're grasping at straws to make it seem better than it is. A murder is a murder. Cruelty is the point. You are not immune to that because you make a few goddamn meals.
What I told you could be lies - I could have wanted them dead, not Shido. You don't know the truth. You're making 'gut' assumptions that I'm not lying to you, and I am.
I've enjoyed every single death I've caused. Nothing makes me happier.
[He wants to fight - more than anything. Wants to hear Maruki gasping for life under his hand, to hear his own harrowed breath try to gain ground. Prove once and for all that a knife through Maruki's eyes would mean nothing to him, two bullets piercing his skull with ease and-
Kurusu is out. Kurusu is here. Kurusu is alive. Kurusu breaths the same air, walks down the same steps, eats from the same plates and nestles into a corner of the kotatsu adjacent to Akechi's own spot.
Kurusu who Maruki, more than anything-]
I killed him too.
Shot him right in the face when he was most vulnerable. He thought we were friends because I manipulated him to think that and he paid for it. Shido didn't ask me to kill him - I volunteered to do it. In reality, even. I shot another worthless nobody in that cell as well - just for fun.
I betrayed Akira. I'll do it again. I'll do it to you.
They filled him with drugs, beat him mercilessly and I came in with the killing blow. His blood was everywhere. His skull shattered. Every part of him decorated that room.
It's not a bad effort. You know that I value others' lives over my own, so if I won't hate you for trying to kill me, surely I will because of who else you've killed, right?
You're worthless to me and everyone around you. Look at how quickly this reality turned against you. Your value is minimal and you'll be betrayed when your worth is gone.
When we return to our true reality, I'm killing you. Immediately. Rumi. Akira. I'll find them all. I'll kill them all.
In every reality, you're an idiot. What a surprise, truly.
I'm not afraid of anything. I never am, and never will be.
Stop looking for that sobbing child you think is me. It's not. You 'care' for a murderer. You house the heartless. You like to be hurt, so you surround yourself with those who will enact it.
[ In some ways, they're the same. Maruki wants to prod him further. Goad him into it. Tell him to really put his back into it this time if he intends to make the kill. Give him a challenge to rise up to, and then beat him at it anyway.
He doesn't. Tempers himself. Akechi can't get a rise out of him, and it's too easy to get a rise out of Akechi. It's not a fair fight.
So he simply walks out to the middle of the lantern-lit clearing not far from the machiya and waits, the rigid set of his shoulders the only thing that belies his tension.
Akechi doesn't lie. Not anymore, not to him, not about things that matter. If he thinks he killed Akira, then he killed Akira – but he didn't. Nothing adds up, and no answers will come until Akechi calms down.
And historically, there's only one way to do that. ]
[ Ah. So it didn't just fill in the blanks, it pulled from their reality. Maruki isn't surprised, but the confirmation is nice. ]
Well, so long as you approve of it, that's all that matters to me.
[ It doesn't have a silencer, though. That's the only issue, as far as he can tell.
Settled back against the wall of the tatami room, snow falling steadily outside, drink buzzing warm in his blood, Maruki can only look calm and content. A little pleased with himself, at having given a good gift, and a little amused by Akechi's nonplussed reaction – but mostly, he's just at peace. ]
You're welcome.
Edited (the </small> tag moves) 2024-12-05 22:34 (UTC)
[Akechi arrives a bit early too - Kazuya already present. A pleasant surprise, not that he thought this guy would flounce.
Even if he did, Akechi was prepared to have a nice evening here.
The music is low and quiet. Dolph an ever calming presence in the background of the establishment.
He strides to Kazuya's side. Points out a table in a low-lit corner, away from others and adjacent to a pair of speakers playing a consistent, placating tune.]
I hope you weren't waiting long. If you don't mind, I would prefer we relax somewhere private, though if you would rather sit at the bar, I'm not opposed.
[Jazz isn't really his thing, though it's also not not his thing either, and he can take enjoyment from it just as much. Case in point, the moment the enter the establishment, Kazuya moves his headphones from on his head to around his neck.]
I wasn't waiting too long, don't worry.
[He doubts Akechi was.]
And somewhere private I think is best. Besides, I don't drink.
[He's not sure whether or not that'll come as a surprise, given not only his nature, but also the fact that they're no longer in Japan, and the legal drinking age doesn't apply here anyway.
The moment they sit though, Kazuya will grab the knife from his pocket, still wrapped in a soft cloth, and slide it across the table towards Akechi.
He ducks his head politely as he apologizes at the same time.]
I'd like to apologize for what I did to you. I lost control, and I shouldn't have let it happen.
An interesting turnaround. One that makes him stop from biting into the sushi piece. It hovers in the air, over an open palm to catch any part of it from hitting the ground.
It's not about feeling better. Akechi never will, but-]
No, frankly. [It's honest, and it isn't. A desire to inflict fear and pain an ever-present sensation in his heart.] But he needs to learn how to deal with it. Being able to remove any and all fear is vital.
[Necessary for what Maruki will do after he's gone.]
[ hm. izutsumi mulls over this. she knows people with pronounced fears. fears that take hold. fears that conquer you step by step. fear is a vital part of the dungeon as much as wishing. ]
He'll learn when the time comes. If you force it too early, it won't work. The heart won't listen.
It's only Akechi that stands there in view and immobile. Still as one of the many trees surrounding them.
He's calm because he's a murderer. He's relaxed because nothing about this is new. A mind clearer than it's ever been in the middle of this field because he can visualize a splatter of gore at Maruki's feet, knows it's only a matter of time before he wins this tit for tat. Maruki's strong. Akechi's strong. Maruki's stronger. Akechi's going to win anyway.
He's calm.
So he laughs when Maruki appears in the field, steady as ever. Confident as ever. Determined as ever.
Akechi will ruin it. He wants to ruin it. He wants to ruin him.]
Do you think you would survive in that prison cell? I wonder - it would be so easy to tell Shido who you are, put you in the same position Akira was. Tied up, beaten, drugged relentlessly until any confession came out. We could frame you, frankly, for any number of things. Another corrupt adult hiding at Shujin Academy - it would make the evening news and then you would be as forgotten as a dead couple in a rural town.
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